Tuesday, December 22, 2009

35/35

**I'm not sure why everything is underlined!! I couldn't get it off!!


How Far Along 35 weeks
Weight Gained ....gulp...35 pounds!!

Maternity clothes yes, some stuff still fits. The shirt in the picture is not a maternity shirt.

Sleep has been horrible...my hips and back hurt

best moment of the week having time off so I get to relax and feel McKenzie move more!

Food cravings it was chicken salad but I've had so much of it that I'm no longer craving it!

morning sickness no but I am getting heartburn at night

Gender sweet baby girl

labor signs nope and we are now at the point that my Dr. would not stop labor

belly button barely there it's pointy at the end though and gets hard at times

What I miss a good nights sleep and being able to shave without any trouble!!

Weekly Wisdom enjoy every kick poke and prod...I"m going to miss that about being pregnant! Also, I ordered things I might need after pregnancy (e.g. pads, breast pads, nipple cream, witch hazel, etc) from drugstore.com it is comparable to most stores and they delivered it to my door with free shipping.

Milestones 35 days left!! I have a feeling that I only have 3 weeks left....but we will see.

Also, I went to the doctor yesterday and waited 2 1/2 freaking hours!! There are 6 Dr's in my office and 3 are taking off this week and 3 the next!! Does that make any sense??? Anyway when I got in there my doctor argued with me about my due date. They got a new computer system and accidentally put my in for January 29th. I know it's only 3 days...but those 3 days matter to me!!! I did IVF I know my EXACT due date...I'm the one who told my doctor!! He was in too much of a hurry to change it in the system!! I was so MAD!!!

Anyway, I hope everyone has a very Merry Christmas!! Remember Jesus is the reason for the season:) LOTS OF LOVE!!









Friday, November 27, 2009

31 weeks 2 days







How far along: 31 weeks 2 days

Weight gained: 21 pounds
Maternity clothes: yes, but stil wearing some t-shirts, comfy pants, pjs, and cami's from pre-pregnancy

sleep: wake up every 2 hours for bathroom and hip pain
best moment of the week: when Brandon gave me a baby book for our anniversary. He had researched for a month to find the perfect one;)
Food cravings: none at the moment....
Morning sickness: nope

Gender: baby girl

Labor signs: hopefully not for at least 6 more weeks!

Belly button: starting to get really tight and hard...
What I miss: sleeping all night and a cold beer
Weekly wisdom: don't wait till the last minute to do things...you never know if you will go on bedrest or labor;) My friend was induced this past week 3 1/2 weeks early because her placenta had stopped working. Also, GOD IS GOOD:)

Milestones: getting past 30 weeks...really big milestone for lung development!!















Wednesday, November 11, 2009

29 weeks/shower

How far along: 29 weeks
Total weight gained: 19 pounds
Maternity clothes: yes, but a few shirts and comfy pants still fit
Sleep: it hasn't been good. My hips hurt so bad at night...I wish I could sleep on my back.
B est moment of the week: when my parents felt McKenzie move
Movement: she as been moving a lot....I LOVE IT
Food cravings: well, since I got gestational diabetes I have been craving cake, cupcakes and pasta:)
Morning sickness: no but I have started gagging again in the morning. I hope it doesn't come back@
Gender: sweet little girl!
Labor signs: no..hopefullly not for at least 6 more weeks!
Belly button: it's disappering fast;)
What I miss: being able to sleep, being able to move like a normal person;)
Weekly wisdom: enjoy every minute because it goes by so fast
Milestones: 3rd trimester






I had my baby shower on November 1st! It was AWESOME!! My cousin, SIL, aunts, mom, and best friend planned it. Everything was perfect! I couldn't have asked for more. Here are a few pictures. I haven't gotten them all yet!



Here is some of the monogrammed stuff that McKenzie got.



One of my favorite pictures! My cousin (whose like a sister) kissing my belly!





My aunt and cousin touching my belly




One of the food tables







My mom and best friend








My cousin painted this for McKenzie. It is now above her crib.






The YUMMY cake!









Saturday, October 31, 2009

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

26 weeks update

How Far Along? 26 weeks
Total Weight Gained/Loss? 16 pounds...I didn't gain any this month!!
Maternity Clothes: yep..I can still fit in some shirts and comfy pants
Sleep: I miss sleep so much!! Leg cramp, back pain, and hip pain have been waking me up.
Best Moment of the Week. Last week it was when they said I could go back to work. This week it has been how much our little girl has been moving!
Movement- yes, she is really moving now!! I love the feeling:)
Food Craving- lettuce wraps, scallops, pizza
Food aversions- nothing...I'm loving eating!!!
Morning sickness?- No but I have started gagging in the morning..I hope it doesn't come back.
Gender- It's A GIRL!!! McKenzie Joy
Labor Signs- hopefully not for at least 9 more weeks...that worries me!!
Belly Button- in but getting shallow!
What I miss-being able to sleep well, being able to do a lot without having to worry about going back on bedrest.
What I'm looking forward to- My baby shower next weekend.
Weekly Wisdom- God has a plan for us...we just have to trust in that plan!! Do as much as you can early...you never know if you will be put on bedrest!
Milestones- going back to work.





Well, last Thursday I went back to the doctor. He decided to "cautiously" let me go back to work. He told me to sit as much as I could, no exercise, no "relations" as he called it, and come back in 2 weeks. He will check my cervix and do a fFN test again next Thursday to see if I can continue working. I'm crossing my fingers that I can..I really don't want to use up my days before the baby is born.
Last Saturday Brandon and I were on our way to my friend's couple baby shower. We were 10 minutes from the party when my nose started bleeding. I have had 2 nosebleeds since becoming pregnant but they only last 3-4 minutes. This nosebleed was massive!! It was so much blood. When I switched paper towels it got on my clothes. Brandon decided that we needed to stop at my parent's house so we could clean my clothes and regroup. We got to the house and it continued to bleed. It was horrible. I held my head over the sink and just let it flow because we were told not to plug it up. It bled for 45 minutes!! Brandon was worried that I had lost too much blood;) We cleaned my clothes and finally made it to the party an hour late. It was crazy!! I hope I don't get anymore like that.
I hope everyone is doing great!!

Monday, October 12, 2009

Bedrest..

This post may have TMI...just a warning;) Yesterday when I woke up I had some brown mucus in my discharge...here comes Wimberly....making me freak out;) Well I went to church and when I got back there was more. My parents picked me up to go meet my brother to eat. I asked my mom if I should call the Dr. She said yes. I called and they said if it got worse to call back. I went about my day and it stayed the same. Around 4 a big chunk came out. I'm freaking out because I'm thinking I'm losing my mucus plug already. I called the Dr. and she said to come to the hospital to get checked out.
When I got to the hospital they put me on a fetal heart monitor and a contraction monitor. Both looked good! They then did an ultrasound. The baby looked great! She is breech (still early of course), she weighs 1lb 9 0z, and is definitely a girl;) My fluids and placenta also looked good. While I was having the ultrasound I had two contractions. She then checked my cervix and thought it looked a little bit open.
I went back to the room and the Dr. came to talk to me. She did the swab test to see if I would be going into labor within 2 weeks. It came back negative..thank GOD!! She then checked my cervix and said it was a little bit open on the outside but the inside was still closed. My regular doctor was out of town so the Dr. on call decided that she wanted me to stay at home an relax until he could look at me on Thursday. Since I have a job where you stand up all day and chase 4 year olds she didn't want to risk my cervix opening up more. After the exam a huge chunk of stuff came out...GROSS!! She said it was probably from the exam...I sure hope so.
So I'm here at home laying on the couch. I'm hoping that I don't have to stay home past Thursday. I really didn't want to use up my sick leave days before maternity leave. My principal made my day last Thursday, because he asked me if I minded staying home with the baby, till next school year. He can hire a certified teacher if I stay gone the rest of the time. If I was only gone for 12 weeks and came back the last 3 he would have had to hire a part time sub. Of course I was thrilled by this news. If it all works out McKenzie will be 7 months old when I go back to work. I just have to save money to compensate for those 3 weeks of work that I won't get paid. Hopefully she will behave and I won't have to stay on bedrest long;) Say a prayer for us.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

24 week update/reunion

How Far Along? 24 weeks
Total Weight Gained/Loss? 16 pounds...CRAZY!!
Maternity Clothes: yep..I can still fit in some shirts and comfy pants
Sleep: leg cramp, back pain, and hip pain have been waking me up
Best Moment of the Week 24 weeks VIABILITY!!
Movement- yes!! I love the feeling:) We can also see her move now;)
Food Craving- lettuce wraps
Food aversions- nothing...I'm loving eating!!!
Morning sickness?- NO, and I hope it doesn't come back in the 3rd trimester.
Gender- It's A GIRL!!! McKenzie Joy
Labor Signs- hopefully not for at least 12 more weeks...that worries me!!
Belly Button- in but getting shallow!
What I miss-being able to sleep well.
What I'm looking forward to- baby showers and my 3D ultrasound
Weekly Wisdom- God has a plan for us...we just have to trust in that plan!! Enjoy every second of being pregnant!
Milestones- Viability
Here is my belly shots..I am getting BIG!!


On September 26th I had my 10 year reunion! It was fun seeing everyone...even though most of us have stayed in touch. I only stayed from 5:30-10:30 because you can only have so much fun around people who are drinking when you can't;) I did have a Coors cutter though (nonalcholic beer)...it tasted so good;)


This is one of my best friends. She is due 7 weeks before me. I love this pic..belly to belly!!!


I hope everyone has been doing great. I have been reading blogs...sorry if sometimes I'm too tired to comment;)


Sunday, September 20, 2009

21 week 4 day update

How Far Along? 21 weeks 4 days
Total Weight Gained/Loss? not sure, I'll know Thursday at my appointment.
Maternity Clothes: definately...there's no turning back now;)
Sleep: leg cramps have been waking me up
Best Moment of the Week buying bedding, putting up the furniture, etc
Movement- yes!! I love the feeling:)
Food Craving- lettuce wraps...we ate them last night and I want more!!
Food aversions- nothing...except mushrooms...yeah!!!
Morning sickness?- NO!!!
Gender- It's A GIRL!!! McKenzie Joy
Labor Signs- hopefully not for 18 more weeks...that worries me!!
Belly Button- in but getting shallow!
What I miss- not having to pee 5 times a night;)
What I'm looking forward to- baby showers
Weekly Wisdom- God has a plan for us...we just have to trust in that plan!! Enjoy every second of being pregnant!
Milestones- getting the nursery together





Here is our baby bed and bedding. I'm so proud...the baby bed was on sale at Babies R Us for 300 and we got the bedding at Target for $50!!








Here is my belly shot. It's definately GROWING!! I'm loving my belly and wearing maternity clothes!!





Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Horrible Blogger

I've been a horrible blogger. I'm so tired after teaching that I just don't feel like blogging. I have been reading your blogs though. I haven't been very good at commenting. I'm going to give a BREIF recap of what's been happening. Brandon and I went to Babies R Us and ordered our baby furniture. We registerd while we were there!! The baby furniture came in last weekend and we put it together!! Made it feel much more real;) It also made me much more paranoid...damn IF!! Now I see that baby bed and I just keep praying that nothing happens.

I think I've been having braxton hicks contractions already. I feel them 4-5 times a day. I called the doctor and they said teachers tend to have them earlier because they are on their feet more often. They told me to rest more and drink plenty of water. I go next Thursday and will get more info.

I know that was short...but I'm tired;) Please say some prayers that our baby stays safe and keeps growing!! PS....I'm 21 weeks..more than half way there!!! YAY!!! I'll try to do my 21 week update soon!! ((HUGS))

Friday, September 4, 2009

19 weeks

Here are my 19 week stats a little late. I've been really tired because of school so I haven't felt like posting;) I have been reading everyone's blogs though!! I hope you have a wonderful weekend!!

How Far Along? 19weeks
Total Weight Gained/Loss? 10 pounds!!
Maternity Clothes: definately...they are so much more comfortable!!
Sleep: it's better since I made my sleep number bed firmer!!
Best Moment of the Week the best moment of last week was finding out the gender!! The best moment of this week was having one of my students come up to my stomach and tell the baby that she loved it;)
Movement- yes!! I love the feeling:) I am waiting for bigger kicks though!!
Food Craving- homade macaroni and cheese made by the lunchroom ladies at my school
Food aversions- nothing...except mushrooms...yeah!!!
Morning sickness?- it's been gone for a week and I'm sooo happy!!
Gender- It's A GIRL!!! McKenzie Joy
Labor Signs- hopefully not for 20 more weeks...that worries me!!
Belly Button- in but getting shallow!
What I miss- having energyand being able to run around more with my preschoolers
What I'm looking forward to- big kicks, baby furniture, and showers;)
Weekly Wisdom- God has a plan for us...we just have to trust in that plan!!
Milestones- finding out the gender!! The last few days people have told me that I've really POPPED!!

Here are my belly pics..I didn't realize that my face was looking so chunky!!

















Saturday, August 29, 2009

It's a.......

It's a.......
















GIRL!!!!!!
We had a great ultrasound. First we did the anatomy scan which took about 30 minutes. Everything looked perfect. The doctor came in to talk to us because he had to leave and go deliver a baby. He mainly wanted to tell us about swine flu and for us to call if we even thought we had been around someone who had it. Since he interrupted the ultrasound the tech forgot to make our video. She said that we could either do it when we came back or go to the nurse and then she would come get us after her next patient. We chose to wait so we could get the video. We went back in and got to see our baby for 15 more minutes. She is perfect!!!

When we left the Dr we went to pick up balloons. I got black balloons and pink confetti. On our way home I put confetti in the balloons and blew them up. We went to my parent's house first and let them pop their balloons. It was awesome when the confetti exploded everywhere. A perfect way to tell them. We then told my mom that we were giving the baby her middle name...I think it meant a lot to her!! Our baby girl is going to be called McKenzie Joy!! After that we watched the video;) Next we went to Brandon's sister's house and let her pop her balloon!! We then made our rounds to Brandon's dad's house. We had told his mom right after the Dr's appointment. She met us in the parking lot because she is in nursing school right now. All in all it went great. Everyone was really excited. I will post the pics of everyone popping their balloons when I can..I forgot the camera at my SIL's house.
We are so excited to know what we are having and can't wait to hold her in our arms!!!



































Monday, August 24, 2009

The best feeling in the world!!

I was just reading people's blogs and had to stop and post about the best feeling in the world. For the past week I have been feeling little twitches where the baby is...I know where CM is because of the doppler. Well I was reading the blogs and I felt those twitches so I said "I feel you CM" and right after I felt a KICK...I had placed my had on my belly after the twitch and could even feel it on my hand...AMAZING!! Definately the best feeling in the world. Keep making your presence known CM. On Thursday we will hopefully be able to find out the gender!!! I hope everyone has a wonderful evening;)

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

17 weeks

As you can see I am definitely popping out!! I'm behind on posting because school has started and I'm back at work...uggh!! Here are my stats;)

How Far Along? 17weeks
Total Weight Gained/Loss? haven't weighed myself...will know next week at OB's visit
Maternity Clothes: BE band works on some pants but wearing some maternity now too;) Sleep: sleeping is getting worse
Best Moment of the Week having people tell me that I finally look pregnant
Movement- not sure...I feel stuff but question if it is the baby
Food Craving- potato soup and grilled cheese
Food aversions- I can finally eat meat again...haven't tried eggs yet
Morning sickness?- yes, usually 2 times a week
Gender- we will know in next week!!
Labor Signs- hopefully not for 23 more weeks...that worries me!!
Belly Button- in
What I miss- having energy, the occasional beer, blue cheese, and cold sandwiches;)
What I'm looking forward to- baby kicks and finding out the gender!!
Weekly Wisdom- God has a plan for us...we just have to trust in that plan!!
Milestones- being able to eat meat again

Saturday, August 8, 2009

Great Day

I had a great day yesterday!! I met 2 of my friends. One just had a baby and the other is 23 weeks pregnant. We went to lunch at a great restaurant and then we went to have massages. All I can say about the massage is that an hour isn't long enough;) I wish I could have taken the lady home with me!! To bad I can't afford to have one every week!! Last night Brandon and I met his sister and her two kids, his mom, and grandma for dinner at a new Mexican restaurant. It was lots of fun!! Today I am going to my parents to celebrate my dad's birthday!! My brother and his new girlfiend are in from Memphis so I get to see them too;) I hope everyone has a great day!!

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

One question

Is lower back pain common around 15 weeks or should I check with the Dr? I'm also thinking about getting a prenatal massage...anyone recommend?? I felt so horrible yesterday that I have to do something. It was my worst day yet...threw-up ( I thought the 2nd trimester meant no more throwing up;), migraine, and backache!! I didn't even get out of my pj's. I hope you ladies have a wonderful day!

Friday, July 31, 2009

Odd and End

Summer is coming to an end and I'm so sad;) This has been the perfect time to be pregnant. I was so sick that I was very happy not to have to be at work!! The baby loves to sleep late and take naps;) It was also perfect because Brandon had to have surgery. He had to lay around for 4 weeks so it made me feel even better to just lay around. It was really great spending so much time with him. All my friends asked if I got tired of being around him so much. Nope..I loved every minute of it. He's never one to sleep late because he's a farmer so he has to wake up early. Having him sleep late with me was like heaven. Our time is coming to an end. His foot is healing and school is near. Our first official teacher day is August 12th. The majority of the students come on the 14th. Since my students are 4 they don't start until August 26th. I will be 18 weeks when the start and I'm praying that I feel better!!
Speaking of feeling better, I felt pretty good for once last night while Brandon and I were watching a movie. This morning I also felt better. Well I decided to take a new vitamin that the OB gave me to try. It had a fish oil pill with it....big MISTAKE!! I was sitting on the couch drinking hot tea and talking to Brandon when all of a sudden I felt AWFUL. I barely made it to the bathroom before I threw up. I don't know if I've ever thrown up so much at one time. Brandon even came in to check on me. The baby does not like those vitamins...it was awful.
I also have a question for you ladies. How does it feel when your uterus is growing?? I know everyone is different and it is hard to explain but could you tell me? Every now and then I feel like this heavy sensation in my uterus kind of like when you are about to start AF...is that normal??? I have also been having really bad headaches...any advice for that? Thanks!! I hope everyone has a good weekend.

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

14 weeks

Getting bigger!!!
How Far Along? 14 weeks
Total Weight Gained/Loss? well I gained some for IVF and then I lost four pounds..now I'm up that 4 pounds....so I guess +4

Maternity Clothes occassional BE band but that's all so far
Sleep I've been sleeping a lot since I haven't been feeling good!
Best Moment of the Week getting to see the baby moving all around!

Movement- not yet but can't wait!!
Food Craving- I've been craving apple pie a la mode...but I haven't had it yet
Food aversions- still meat and eggs
Morning sickness?- yes, I'm hoping I feel better soon!
Gender- we will know in 4 weeks!

Labor Signs- hopefully not for 26 more weeks
Belly Button- in
What I miss- having energy
What I'm looking forward to- feeling the baby move and finding out the gender..and for the hematoma to go away so I stop bleeding!!

Weekly Wisdom- God has a plan for us...we just have to trust in that plan!!
Milestones- 2nd trimester!!

Monday, July 27, 2009

13 weeks 6 days/ultrasound

We had a doctor's appointment today to check on the hematoma. I sure don't like this hematoma but it has given me more chances to see our miracle;) We had our ultrasound first. The baby has changed so much in 2 weeks. He looks so "real" now;) Looking at the ultrasound you would never think that this baby is only 3 1/2 inches long!! The baby was showing off for us by moving all around and waving his arms and legs. Everything looked great with the baby. Unfortunately the hematoma is still there but very small. The said hopefully it will be gone by 20 weeks. I then had to do blood work and talked to the doctor. I asked him if it was crazy to be scared of an incompetent cervix. He said no it wasn't but I don't have an increased risk for it so I should try not to worry. My cervix was closed and long today!! I had been getting mixed reviews about eating blue cheese and cold ham so I asked him about that. He told me NOT TO EAT IT!! So sad because that's 2 of he only things I have been craving and ham is one of the only meats I can tolerate at this point! I will do anything for my baby though...SMALL sacrifice. He told me that I would have another ultrasound in 4 weeks to look at the hematoma and hopefully find out the gender!! I am so thankful that we had a good appointment and the baby looks good!! THANK YOU GOD!!! I hope everyone had a wonderful day;)





Our little "alien" baby



Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Prayers for fellow blogger friends...

Hi guys! I have a couple of prayer request for two of my blogger friends. The first is for Stacey. She had her twins at 27 weeks. Her beautiful boys are named Connor and Colby. Tuesday Connor passed away. Please pray for Stacey, her husband, and for Colby's fast recovery.

My second request is for Sarah. Sarah got awful news on Monday when her doctor told her that her pregnancy was chemical. Please pray that Sarah and her husband find peace.

Saturday, July 18, 2009

Wimberly WImberly Go Away

Well yesterday and today, I have had dull sensations in my cervix, every now and then. The Wimberly in me started to worry (of course). I debated on if I should check my cervix. I washed my hands and checked it. I was surprised to find that it was soft and felt slightly open...the tip of my finger could fit in it. I was worried so I called the on call doctor. She told me that they don't like patients to check their own cervix..I didn't expect they did. She said what I was telling her seemed really normal and if I had really bad cramps or tons of bleeding then they would be worried. I asked her if it could be from the hematoma and she said yes. I forgot to ask her if it could be from the progesterone inserts. So my questions ladies is should I be worried about this??? My next appointment is on July 27th. What do you think???

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

12 weeks


Well I decided to finally start documenting belly shots and information about the pregnancy. I think I was too nervous before...I'm trying my best not to be;)




How Far Along? 12 weeks


Total Weight Gained/Loss? down 4 pounds from starting IVF treatments


Maternity Clothes occassional BE band but that's all so far


Sleep was really good but for some reason the last two days my back has been hurting


Best Moment of the Week getting the doppler in the mail!!


Movement- not yet but can't wait!!


Food Craving- crackers with cheese with apple slices on the side


Food aversions- meat and eggs


Morning sickness?- yes!! I only throw-up when I wake up early though.


Gender- not sure!!


Labor Signs- hopefully not for 28 more weeks


Belly Button- in


What I miss- hot, hot baths and a cold beer


What I'm looking forward to- another ultrasound on the 27th, movement, and finding out the gender


Weekly Wisdom- the only person in control is God...trust in him!! (I'm trying;)


Milestones- When my OB said you have a 1% chance of something happening now!!

Friday, July 10, 2009

First OB visit/11w2d

Well I had my first OB appointment today. My wonderful mom went with me since Brandon had surgery. The doctor made me feel much better! He was not at all worried about my hematoma. He said as the baby gets bigger it stretches out making it bleed more. He told me that mine is so small now (about the size of your thumbnail) that it shouldn't bleed much longer. It's so crazy that so much blood can come from something so small!! He said that I should get back to exercising 24 hours after it stops bleeding. I will be so happy to get back to doing that!! It's been about 9 weeks since I've exercised and that is NOT LIKE ME:) We are going to have an ultrasound in 2 weeks to check the hematoma out and make sure it's getting smaller.
He asked me if i had any questions and my only one was about the belly hair;) He laughed and said that was normal. He said that I could bleach or nair it off after 13 weeks. 2 more weeks and then I'll feel so much better;)
We then went to the procedure room and I had my routine pap..yay (eyes rolling)!! Then he pulled out the doppler. He felt my stomach first and said there's a small bump..I bet that's where the baby is! He put the Doppler on it and found the heartbeat right away!! He said that was a wonderful sign and it drops my miscarriage rate to 1%. My mom said I'm so glad you told her that!! Overall it was a great appointment and it made me feel much better. I wish we could have had the ultrasound today so my mom could have seen CM..but I guess I'm just spoiled from my weekly ultrasounds at RE's office!!
After the appointment my mom and I met my dad for lunch. My meatless lunch was great..I had Yaki Udon with no meat!! Overall it was a great day!! THanks MOM!!! i LOVE YOU;)
I also discovered that I throw up the mornings that I have to wake up early. My 9 week appointment was early and I threw up. This morning I woke up early and of course threw up. So now I'm even happier that I have been off for the majority of the 1st trimester or it would have been A LOT worse;)
Thanks to everyone who commented on my last post..you always make me feel better!! I did order a doppler by the way. I ordered it the day before my bleeding episode but it hasn't come in yet! Tonight is my monthly girls card night! I hope everyone has a great night!

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Hospital Visit

Warning..this may be a TMI post. Yesterday around 7:30 I felt blood. I checked my pantyliner and sure enough it had bright red blood on it. I got home and went to the bathroom and it was A LOT. It made the toilet water red again (like the first time 6 weeks ago). I had to wipe A LOT to not see anymore blood. I showed Brandon and he told me not to worry. I started crying anyway and called my friend to see if I could use her doppler. She brought it right over and was crying as she handed it to me (GREAT FRIEND). We found the heartbeat but I still felt anxious. A few minutes later I went to the bathroom again and it was the exact same thing. I called Brandon and for the first time in this pregnancy he looked a little worried. He called his stepmom who works at the Woman's hospital and she said it was probably the clot but we could go in if we wanted. Brandon said lets go because I know you will be a nervous wreck if we don't. We headed over there. It felt like the longest 45 minutes of my life!! She had called the center so they took us right back with out waiting!! The put me in a room and I changed into a gown. They told me to put my old pad in the garbage so the doctor could see it. They then gave me this huge pad to put between my legs..which is kind of hard when they tell you not to wear underwear!
I then got in the bed and the nurse came and checked all my vitals and asked me routine questions. She then left and came back saying the doctor wanted her to check and see if my cervix was closed. She checked and it was...huge sigh of relieve. The doctor then came in and talked about my subcorinic hematoma and said it was probably that. She said that she would have been worried also and she would have come in too. She said I'm a mama now and the worry will never stop. She told me not to feel bad about coming in because anyone else would have done the same thing. That made me feel really good.
A few minutes later someone came and got me for ultrasound. The ultrasound tech found the baby right away and said " I have a lot to look at but I want you to see the baby so that you have piece of mind." It was so fabulous seeing that beating heartbeat. I wanted to jump off the table and get on my knees and praise God. She then turned the screen and only she and Brandon could see. She was trying to measure the heartbeat but the baby was moving around too much. Brandon looked so excited. He said the legs and arms were moving up and down and then the head was moving. He must have gotten tired because he settled down enough for her to measure the heartbeat which was 163. The baby also measured 11w 1 day. She then took awhile to look at everything else..ovaries, cervix, etc.
I then went back to my room and waited for the doctor to come back. She came and explained that I did still have the hematoma. She said that I would definitely bleed more and it would be bright red so not to worry. She said she was worried about the fact that I'm still on baby aspirin and that could be making it worse. She told to ask my OB about it Friday when I go in. She told me that sometimes hematomas resolve themselves by 13 or 14 weeks and sometimes they last the whole pregnancy!! I sure hope not!! Brandon said if that's the case can we just keep some spare clothes at the hospital;) She then released us and gave me some papers for my OB on Friday.
That was the most frightened I've been the whole pregnancy! Everyone says "Don't worry"! They can say that because they aren't living with this all the time. They aren't scared every time they go to the bathroom. They haven't been through so much heartache to get pregnant. They don't have their WHOLE heart and all their dreams invested into something so precious. They haven't watched their baby grow every week on ultrasounds and have such a fear that they wouldn't see that baby again. I know you girls understand...you have lived that same worry. Thanks for listening..sorry this post was so long;)
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Tuesday, July 7, 2009

worry worry go away

Well Brandon and I have been stuck in the house since last Wednesday. We both needed to get out a little while today so we decided to go to my school. I could do some stuff and Brandon could still sit or lay on bean bag chairs. We stayed about 2 hours and then my patient was feeling bad so we went home. We took a nap. When I woke up from my nap there was more red spotting. Now I am worried that I did too much. Please pray that all is well with little CM.

Friday, July 3, 2009

A graduate that still needs help...

Well even though I graduated from my RE's office, I had to call them this morning. When I got out of bed this morning I had dark reddish brown blood fill my pantyliner. I'm used to spotting and even a little more, the problem is that yesterday I didn't have any, so I didn't expect this. I called the office and the said they were almost positive it was the remaining clot. They said I could come in if I need reassurance but that they weren't worried. I told them that I was okay...if it wouldn't have cost me 225 and been an hour a way..I probably would have gone. Now I'm just praying that it is the clot and hopefully it is almost gone.
I forgot to mention in my last post that we are calling the baby CM. This is the initials for our boy name and our girl name. We will call the baby that until we know the gender. Someone also asked if I was still taking progesterone. Yes, I am down to one insert a day and will take it till I am 12 weeks. I am not taking estrace anymore but I am still on baby aspirin. I had my first pregnancy nosebleed last night. I was brushing my teeth and did not expect it!!
Well, I have to write a lesson plan for a computer class that I am helping to teach in a couple weeks, so I better go. I have been putting it off because it's based on the movie To Kill a Mockingbird. It is geared for high school English. I teach elementary school so this is stressing me out;) I hope everyone has a great day!!

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Eventful Day


Sorry it's taken me so long to post about yesterday!! Brandon and I woke up and got ready for our long day. We left the house about 9:15. Brandon got a ticket on the way to the RE's office..so we were about 15 minutes late;) For some reason I was SOOO nervous about this appointment. I don't know why...my Wimberly was kicking in a guess. I think as a IF girl you always expect the other shoe to drop and for something to take away your good fortune. I'm trying not to think like that though!! We went in to the ultrasound room and waited for the doctor. He walked in and got started. I was so thankful to see that beautiful baby on the screen with that flickering heartbeat. He said "he's looking more like a baby now"! The baby's legs and arms were clearly visible. He even moved one of his arms for us...probably wanted to say "mama quit worrying"! He showed us the umbilical cord and told me that the clot is getting much smaller. He said the spotting should stop soon...HOPEFULLY!! Then he told me I could get up. Before I was all the way up he said well it looks like graduation day!! I busted out crying!! He told me that it would be alright, that my doctor was right down the hall and I could stop in and visit whenever I wanted. This didn't help...I kept on crying and hugging him. I told him thank you for everything he had done. Then he left and I got dressed. I composed myself but that only lasted a minute. When I walked out the room all the nurses were standing there and they had tears in their eyes. I hugged them all and they told me to come visit so they could see my belly grow and bring in ultrasound pictures. Then we left. It was very emotional. I have been going there A LOT for a year now. It is a comforting, warm place where you don't feel like an outcast;) I also love that you never have to wait...I'm really going to miss that!! The only thing I won't miss is spending 225 every week for an ultrasound...though I will miss those weekly ultrasounds!! It's bittersweet..I'm so thankful to be progressing well and moving on to a "regular" pregnancy but I will miss their reassurance.

After the appointment we had to move on to Brandon's doctor for his surgery. He checked in at 11 and was taken to surgery around 12:20. The surgery went well. We left at around 3 and drove home. Brandon's foot was bleeding so we had to wrap more gauze around it. He was okay until the numbing medicine wore off..then he started to feel some pain. He has been sleeping all day on and off so hopefully everything will be okay.

I have felt really bad since last night. I have had a bad headache and been nauseous more than usual. I will take it though to make a healthy baby!!

I hope everyone has a wonderful day. I'm going check on my patient!!

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

It's that time again..

Tomorrow we need lots of prayers. We have our 10 week ultrasound in the morning..please pray that all goes well. We also have Brandon's surgery. Please pray that all goes well with that. Thanks!!!

Today I had to go to my school. They told me that my classroom was filled with packages and I needed to come in. I'm the head pre k teacher so all our consumable stuff comes to me and I have to divide it up. It was UNBELIEVABLE how much stuff was in my room. There was PILES of boxes. When I walked in I almost walked right back out;) Thank goodness my friend was with me to do the heavy lifting. It took us 5 hours just to get the stuff divided up an into piles. My room is a mess. All the empty boxes are in the middle of the room and the piles of stuff is around the room. The janitor said he was going to transport the piles to the classrooms for me and take out the trash tomorrow. I hope that when I go back none of that is there. I am so exhausted now!! I hope everyone had a great day. :)

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

9 week ultrasound


We had a busy day. At 8:50 we had to be at Brandon's foot surgeon's office. He is having surgery on his foot next Wednesday. We had to go in for instructions. Brandon has a bone spur and a bunion. They will be fixing that and putting pins in his foot. The doctor said he won't know how bad it is until he goes in. We are hoping for the easiest fix. If this is done then he will only have to be on "house arrest/bedrest" for 2 weeks without driving for 6 weeks. If they have to do a more advanced procedure than he has to be off his foot and in the house for 2 months!! My husband is a VERY outdoorsy man. He would go CRAZY if he had to be cooped up for 2 months. Please pray that it's the easier outcome;)

After that appointment we went to my doctor's appointment. It took a little longer than usual because they got a new ultrasound machine and the lady that sells them was in there with us explaining to the doctor how to use it. Since they finally got a new machine we got to HEAR the babies heartbeat!! I was sooo excited;) I had tears in my eyes when I heard that amazing sound. It is measuring 170. The baby looks good. It is measuring 9 weeks 1 day. The doctor did not "graduate" us because he doesn't want us to leave until the spotting stops. He looked at the clot and it seems to be getting smaller. He said it is not affecting the baby..which is what we care about!! Spotting seems almost normal now. I never thought I would say that. So our appointment went well...thanks for ALL of your PRAYERS!! We appreciate them more than you know. Please keep them coming;)

After the ultrasound we went to the movies and watched "Transformers". I really liked it. Brandon said it wasn't as good as the first one because they tried to out do themselves. Now we are back at home and I'm going watch my college alumni "LSU" play for the National Championship in baseball!! GEAUX TIGERS!!!

I hope yall had a wonderful day!!


Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Prayers

We have our 9 week ultrasound tomorrow. I don't know about ya'll but I worry everytime we go in to do an ultrasound. If you could spare a few prayers please send some our way. Also please pray for Stacey. She went in for an ultrasound and found that her cervix is very short. She is on strict bedrest and goes back in Friday to see if she will be admitted to the hospital. Her twins are 23 weeks old. Please pray for her and her family.

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Updates

This whole week I have been busy with Vacation Bible School. I don't like to be in charge of a class since I have that to worry about all year long. Instead, I have the joy of working with a wonderful woman and her daughter in the crafts department. We set up craft projects for different grades and they alternate through at different times. It's laid back and fun. I really enjoyed it but it wore me out;) I don't know how people teach all day in their first trimester!! God must have known I'd be tired and that's why he waited so long to bless me with this pregnancy;) He knew I needed the beginning to be in the summer!!
Everyday at around 2:00 I am exhausted and have to take a nap. I haven't been feeling that nauseous except at night. For some reason meat really turns me off in the evening. I cook meat for Brandon to eat but I can only eat some of the sides. I have not thrown up though which I guess is good. So I'm just tired and feel a somewhat sick at night. Other than that I really don't have any symptoms. My boobs don't hurt. I wish they did so I would worry less! I am still spotting but it's still brown..hopefully nothing to worry about. I do have an EMBARRASSING question though. Has anyone had a problem with excessive body hair? I have a line of dark hair growing on my stomach and I DON"T like it!! If you had this what did you do to get rid of it that was safe?? I read that body hair bleach or Nair is okay to use but I'm a little afraid to use it. If you had this problem please let me know;) I hope everyone has a great weekend!!

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Praise God

Well I believe that your prayer have helped me through again!!! Our ultrasound went good. The baby is growing...measuring exactly 8 weeks. The doctor said that the spotting is coming from some old blood that is pooled up in my uterus and cervix....probably from last weeks episode with the other sac. So I should probably expect the spotting to last awhile. It's nothing to worry about as long as it's brown or dark red and does not bring on any pain. He said he never likes to see it but only because it makes people worry;) Brandon said he was acting a little weird but I think it was because he and his nurse were dressed in surgical gear because they were late for a embryo retrieval!! It's IVF time again so the office is busy. He told us that next week he will take my blood levels to see if I need to continue the meds (SCARY;) and we will also talk about graduation. I will be happy and sad about graduation. As all you IF girls know...you are happy to have come so far but you will be sad to leave the comfort of the clinic and the weekly ultrasounds!!
Sorry it took me so long to post. I rode with Brandon to get 4 tons of feed for the cows. On the way back I was so nauseous and worried because the truck was sooo bumpy!! Then we took a 2 hour nap;) I hope everyone is having a wonderful day!! Thanks again for the prayers!! Keep them coming!!

PS. Kimberly, if you read this post please let me know how to read your blog!! I wanted to comment and thank you but your blog was blocked;)
Also, I haven't posted any pics because my RE's ultrasound machine does not take the best pics...I will have to wait until I go to the OB!!

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Once again your prayers are needed!!

When will this worry stop?? I'm guessing it never will. Everything had been going pretty good the last few days...no spotting. Then last night before bed when I went to the bathroom there was some really dark spotting. When I woke up this morning it was there again. Please pray for us. I really think your prayers have helped us thus far!! We go in tomorrow for an ultrasound. Please pray that our baby looks good. Thank you so much!

Sunday, June 14, 2009

weekend/question

This has been a pretty good weekend. Once a month 12 of my friends and I get together at someone's house (we alternate) and eat dinner, gossip, and play cards. It's REALLY fun. Sometimes we get so into talking to each other that we skip the card playing. Friday was our monthly get together. It was really fun to see everyone because I missed last month because of the transfer. One of my friends is also an IF girl. It was good to see her because I haven't seen her since she got a belly. She is 17 weeks pregnant and I'm so happy for her!! Everyone went "out" after and it felt so good to go home to my hubby because I'm pregnant and can't go out!!
Saturday we had our nieces 4th birthday party. She was so excited because she got her ears pierced. She looked sooo cute!! After the party Brandon and I went to dinner.
Today I got to see my brother for about 1 hour. He was home for a conference. Then my mom and I went to church. After church we came home and cooked lunch. Brandon and I came home after lunch and watched a movie "Felon". I love vegging out on Sunday's...so relaxing!!

I have one question for you girls...I had some "twitching" in my lower belly around lunch. It lasted for about 30 minutes. When Brandon and I came home it happen again for 10 minutes. It kind of freaked me out. Is that normal?? Since the baby is only the size of a small grape I know I can't feel it moving...what is happening?? If you know could you please leave a comment!! Thanks. I hope everyone had a great weekend!!

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

7 week ultrasound

We had our 7 week ultrasound today. Heartbeat is still going strong. Thank you God!! Please keep praying that everything goes okay.
I have started to read Belly Laughs by Jenny McCarthy!! It is hilarious...you must read it. I hope you are having a great week. Thanks for all the prayers...keep um coming;)

Monday, June 8, 2009

PRAISE GOD!!!

I'm so sorry that it took me so long to update. All I have to say is PRAISE GOD. I have never been so worried. I had A LOT of bleeding. I'm going to go in detail because I was looking for blogs that talked about this. I went to the bathroom last night and there was a lot of blood...think a little more than 2nd day of AF. It made the toilet water pink. I was terrified!! Brandon is so logical and levelheaded...he told me don't worry about it, the baby is fine. I tried not to and went to sleep. I woke up at 3 and went to the bathroom and it was the exact same thing again. I couldn't go back to sleep. I went to the bathroom around 3 more times and it was the same thing. (There was only a small clot the first time I went to the bathroom..the rest was bleeding ranging from bright pink to dark red). I left a message on the doctor's voicemail. They called me back at 7:15 and told me to come in. We got there about 9 (Brandon was at work and we live 50 min away). Brandon told me I had nothing to worry about the entire ride there. We went into the ultrasound room and the nurse asked me exactly how much bleeding there was. She said that it was probably vanishing twin syndrome since we had seen a two sacs last week but only 1 heartbeat.
The doctor came in and told me not to worry. As soon as he put the probe in he said that's a STRONG HEARTBEAT. That was music to my ears. He looked all around and didn't see another sac and said that my body was probably getting rid of that empty sac. When I sat up I told him to tell Brandon that it is normal to worry. As I said that I busted out crying. The doctor gave me a talk (most of it I don't remember). He said that if someone called about bleeding and then he did an ultrasound my result was textbook at what you would want to see. That he wouldn't "bullshit" me. That I needed to relax and let Brandon do more. (Brandon said he only told me that to make me laugh...that he didn't really mean it;) He told me to keep my appointment on Wednesday so that I could remain sane;) I'm so very thankful for everyone's prayers and for God's blessing today. I feel so blessed. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU GOD!!!
I wanted to go home and rest but we had an appointment with a tax lady and it was the ONLY day that she could see us so we went and it took like 5 hours!!! I'm finally on the couch, where I wanted to be all day long!
Thanks again for the prayers...it REALLY means a lot!

I've NEVER needed your prayers more...

I've never needed your prayers more. Last night before bed I experienced bleeding. It was enough to make the water in the toilet red. It scared me to death. I was a little better before bed because both times that I went to the bathroom there was hardly anymore. I'm up at 3:00 am because I woke up to go to the bathroom and it was the same thing again. I'm so scared that I'm going to lose my baby. Please pray for us.

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Thank you, thank you, thank you God!!

We had our ultrasound this morning. I was SOOOO nervous...my heart was beating so fast!!! The doctor came in and told me that if they didn't see a heartbeat not to worry about it since you don't always see one at 6 weeks. He then started the ultrasound and immediately found one baby and told me to hold my breath to see if he could see a heartbeat. When I did there was a tiny tiny flicker and he told me that was the heartbeat!!! I was sooooo excited. He kept looking for awhile which I thought was unusual. Then he said I think I saw another sac and Brandon said "I saw that too and I was waiting for you to say something!" He then said that there was definately one and it could possibly be 2 but he wouldn't know until next week. Brandon and I hugged and kissed after I got dressed. Praise God...I'm so thankful right now!! We go back next Wednesday for another ultrasound!!

After the ultrasound we walked to the hospital next door to see my friend who had a baby yesterday. She was induced at 6:30 yesterday morning. By 8:30 last night I finally left the hospital because I was exhausted. At 9:30 they called and said that they were going to have to do a c-section because she hadn't progressed in a few hours. She finally had her beautiful baby girl at 11:24. I'm sooo happy for her!! I hope everyone has a wonderful day!!

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Tomorrow

Tomorrow is our ultrasound!! Please say some prayers for us!!! LOVE YA

Saturday, May 30, 2009

Asking for more prayers

I'm asking for more prayers. Yesterday I had some brown spotting. I called the clinic but they were closed so I left a message. This morning when I wiped it was pinkish and a little brown followed. They called and told me to try not to worry because my numbers have been really good. They said that it could be from implantation bleeding or the progesterone inserts are hitting my cervix and making it bleed. They said the cervix is really delicate right now. I'm praying that nothing is wrong!! Please pray for us!

Babies,

Please grow healthy and strong. Your mommy and daddy want you so bad. Snuggle in tight and hang on...you only have 34 weeks to go.

love,
mama

Friday, May 29, 2009

Summer/Prayers

Today was our LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!!! I'm off for 10 weeks!!! YAY!!! I'm sooooo excited!! Please pray for my friend Amanda who is being induced on Tuesday. Also please keep praying for our ultrasound to go good on Wednesday!! We need all the prayers we can get;)

Please pray for Dana she is living her worst nightmare. Her ultrasound today showed that her baby hasn't been growing. That is my biggest fear and my heart is breaking for her! Please pray for T and Wanting Waiting and Praying for OUr Miracle they received negative betas after IVF. My heart breaks for them. Also pray for Kami who is waiting to see if her 2nd IVF worked.

Thursday, May 28, 2009

3rd Beta 17dp5dt

Well I went to the doctor this morning at 7:45. I was SOOO nervous. They said they would call with the results. The time ticked by so slowly. I was so nervous because they have been calling me by 9:00. At 11:00 I was eating lunch for the last time with my class. The phone rang and I went outside. They said your results were good. I said I was so worried watching the time tick by. They said my beta was 2,481 and that was good. She said that my RE wanted to see me at 6 weeks for my ultrasound which is June 3rd at 8:30. PRAISE GOD!!! Keep on praying girls...another milestone down...more to go!! I hope everyone has a great day!!gu






Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Pray;)

Not much has been going on. It's the last week of school and I'm so happy because I'm sooo tired!! I've taken a nap everyday this week after work. Other than that I've just been very HUNGRY. Brandon has been making fun of me because I've been eating so much (not in a mean way;) I'm so ready to be SICK though so I know that nothing is wrong...isn't that crazy!! Tomorrow I have another blood test. Please send some prayers this way that it will be good!! I hope everyone is having a great week.

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Worry, Worry, Worry

I had always heard of people with IF worrying after they got pregnant. I told myself that I would worry a little but not much. Well IF has really done something to me. Since I found out I was pregnant...all I do is WORRY!! I really need to stay busy today because yesterday I didn't do much and I worried ALL day. I keep praying that everything go okay and for some of the worry to go away. For others who have been through this...what did you do to stop worrying so much??

Friday, May 22, 2009

2nd Beta

My beta today was 191. They said that was good. I was a LITTLE worried because it was 14 away from doubling. I go back next Thursday to check it again. Please keep praying for us!!! I hope everyone has a wonderful Friday!!

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

BETA RESULTS

Have I kept you in suspense long enough???? The nurse called my phone at around 8:30 this morning. I was out of the classroom so I didn't check it until around 9. When I did I thought she sounded kind of "down". I got so worried. I decided not to call since I was at work. Three hours later around 12 I texted Brandon and told him to call because I was too nervous. He texted me back and said the nurse was at lunch. I said okay. I then went to the office to talk to my principal. I hear Brandon asking the secretary for me. I was in SHOCK that he was at school. I told him to wait a minute while I finished talking to the principal. I then went outside to talk to him. He said "I have some bad news". I said "WHAT"!!! He said "It's going to be hard work being a MOM". All I kept saying was are you SERIOUS!!! I must have asked him about 30 times. We kissed and hugged and then we both had to go back to work. I think it's SOOO neat that he found out before me;) My beta results were 105. I go back tomorrow to see if they doubled. Please say some prayers.
I didn't blog about this earlier because my mom, MIL, and SIL all read this blog and I didn't want them to find out like that. Brandon and I have been running the roads telling all our family. WE ARE THRILLED. I'm very happy, I'm in AWE, I'm nervous, and I'm Thankful, and I'M GOING TO PRAISE GOD TILL I"M BLUE IN THE FACE:)
Thanks to everyone who kept my spirits up when I was spotting!!! I LOVE ALL OF YOU!!

Monday, May 18, 2009

Preparing for the worst...

Well I am preparing for the worst. About 4 hours ago I had a some light pink blood on my pantyliner. I called my doctor and they told me not to worry about it until it got heavy...not to worry...how do they expect me to do that??? I am going in tomorrow after school to do my beta. They won't have the results until Wednesday because they lab will be closed by the time I get there. I hoping that it's no big deal....praying that it doesn't mean anything. If it does mean that it is a BFN I have already talked to God and asked him to make me strong. Please pray for me girls. Pray that if it can't be a BFP that I am strong and patient while I wait for God's plan.

Saturday, May 16, 2009

God has a plan

I've been up since 6:15 and its SATURDAY!! I was laying in bed not sleeping and talking to God. I asked him to please watch over my little embryos and help them to grow into healthy babies. I also asked him that if they do not....please give me the strength and the courage to get through this. I know God has a plan for me and I should not be afraid of what tomorrow holds. I love this verse "Glory be to God who by his mighty power at work within us is able to do far more than we could ever dare to ask or even dream of." Ephesians 3:20
I've been waiting to tell ya'll a story about one of my wonderful friends. She followed a similar path as me. She is a faithful IF warrior;) She went to the same RE as I do. She had 3 IUI's and they were unsuccessful. These BFN's caused her so much disappointment and heartache that she decided not to do it anymore. She couldn't put herself through the stress of all the medicines, schedules, doctor's appointments, etc just to be disappointed again. She decided that it must not be in God's plan for her to have a baby. She decided that they would enjoy life together and be satisfied with the love they share. She means so much to me because I can go to her and she knows exactly what I'm going through. She has a heart of GOLD. A couple of weeks ago she came to me and asked how my IVF cycle was going and told me that God has a plan for all of us and we have to trust in him. She then told me that she was PREGNANT!! She had given up on that path in life and God had turned her back around;) She told me that she was still very worried because this was so unexpected. She is now 10 weeks and still doing well. Her story gives me so much hope and courage. It makes me truly believe that we don't have control over our life....GOD holds the reigns!!
I'm not feeling "pregnant" so I've been a little worried. I just have to keep reminding myself of my friend and believing that God knows the way that I need to travel. Please send some prayers my way and to my friend that she has a successful pregnancy.
I hope everyone has a wonderful Saturday.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

A little sad...

Well 2 of my blogger friends: mary and carrie are always talking about how they feel like Wemberly Worried...it's a popular children's book. In the book Wemberly worries about EVERYTHING. I think i'm also starting to be a Wemberly. All night I was worried about how I was laying in bed and if it would hurt the embryos, etc. I'm even more worried now because my doctor's office called and said my remaining 2 embryos did not make it to freeze. That's so disappointing!!! Does that mean that the 2 they implanted wouldn't have made it either?? I keep telling myself that God is going to lead me through this and he has an ultimate plan for me that I don't know about just yet. PLease send some prayers my way...I don't want to have to go through all this again. ((HUGS))

Monday, May 11, 2009

Day 5 Transfer


At 8:00 this morning we arrived at the doctor. The took us back and instructed me to take my Valium. Then we went into the consultation room and my RE and the embryologist came in to talk to us. They showed us what our embryos looked like on day 1 when they first fertilized. Then they showed us that they were almost all exactly the same on Day 3 at 8 cells. Then they showed us what they looked like this morning. One looked "awesome"...it was an overachiever. It was textbook quality. There were two more that were "almost" to that stage and would probably be there by tonight. Our final embryo was running a little behind but they said they wouldn't give up on it. The told us they would implant the best one and pick one of the other two that looked great. I asked if they were going to freeze the other two and they said they would know in the morning if they both made it or if just one did.

The nurse then took us to the recovery room and I put on my gown and Brandon put on his scrubs. They then covered me with warm blankets and we went to the surgical room. It was a little awkward since I was awake this time. The nurses strapped my legs in to these really high stirrups...much higher than the ones I'm used to. The washed me with soap...very COLD and got me all sterile;) Then the embryologist came in with the embryos in a "baby" incubator so that all the tools and embryos would remain sterile. Next came in the doctor. The embryologist asked if Brandon wanted to look at the embryos in the microscope..that got him excited. When he sat back down by my head I told him "Isn't this Romantic??"...I never thought this is how I would be making a baby;) The then put the embryos in and showed them to me on the ultrasound machine. The RE said he was going to drain my bladder so I didn't have to get up for awhile...I'm not sure how he did this because it didn't hurt. Next they wheeled me to recovery and told me I needed to lay down for 30 minutes. The nurse came in and explained my discharge information...take it easy for the rest of the day, no exercise for awhile etc. I asked her why they don't prescribe bed rest after today and she said that was an "old school" way of doing things and my doctor likes to keep up with the times. That is one reason he doesn't prescribe PIO injections and gives endometrian inserts instead.
I am taking it really easy today. I took a nap and now I'm laying on the couch. Since I don't have a "sit down" job I'm going to take tomorrow off too but I am going back Wednesday. Now comes the wait. All I can do is relax and pray. God has brought me this far...I have to believe he will carry me through no matter what the outcome. I hope everyone had a wonderful day;)

Saturday, May 9, 2009

3 day report on embryos

It's been so long since I cried tears of joy. When you are going through IF most tears are of sadness and disappointment. At 8:30 this morning I cried tears of joy when the clinic called me and told me my embryo report. They need to be between 6 and 8 cells to be "okay" at this stage. When they checked our four embabies they are all at state 8!!! Which is AWESOME!!! I was so nervous this morning that they were going to call me and none were going to be alive. I fell to my knees and praised God. He truly is WONDERFUL. We are now going to do a Day 5 transfer on Monday at 8:30. Please continue to pray for us!! We need all the prayers that we can get. Have a wonderful Saturday!!

Thursday, May 7, 2009

Fertilization Report/100th Post

Well this is my 100th post...I wish I had better news...but I guess it could be worse!! I got the fertilization report about 1:00 because they called when I was at work and I didn't hear the phone. She said that out of the 8 eggs they retrieved 6 were mature. They did ICSI on those 6 and 4 are now in petri dishes. I know it could be worse but those numbers are so frustrating. Now I know why IUI's weren't working if only half the eggs were viable. I'm so nervous that something is going to happen to those 4. I'm praying that they all make it and we can transfer 2 and freeze 2. Please say some prayers for us!! They will look at them on Saturday and let me know if I"m doing a 3 day or 5 day transfer. I"m hoping for a 5 day since the rates are supposedly better. If anyone could send some extra prayers my way I would appreciate it;)

I went to work today. It wasn't too bad. At first I was in slow motion...but 4 and 5 year olds will take care of that;) I started my edometrium inserts today and I do not like them!! They don't make me feel bad but the whole thing kind of grosses me out!! But I will use them for 9 months if it helps me have a baby!!
Please go give my friend at RES COGITATAE some love she got her fertilization report today. Also my friend at GOOD EGG HUNTING had her fertilization report yesterday.
I HOPE EVERYONE HAD A WONDERFUL DAY!!

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Egg Retrieval

Well I had my egg retrieval this morning. We got there at 7:30. The were really busy so it took them a minute to take me back. At about 7:45 they took me to the recovery room and I put on a hospital gown. They then put me in a surprisingly comfortable bed and gave me an IV with an antibiotic and water bag. The anesthesiologist came and introduced herself. She was so cute and petite!! I then layed their and talked to Brandon. At 8:20 they came in and said my RE was running a little late on the clinic side of the office. This has been a VERY busy IVF cycle because they have 32 women. It amazes me because they also have to perform IUI's, ultrasounds, etc on other patients. At 8:40 the anesthesiologist and my nurse wheeled me to the operating room. Brandon kissed me goodbye!! When I got in there I was transferred to another table and the anesthesiologist explained that she was inserting some medicine in my IVF that would put me to sleep. That's ALL I remember!! The next thing I remember was two nurses were waking me up. I was in a DEAD sleep. I felt so out of it!! I did have to go to the bathroom really badly though so Brandon and the nurse helped me to walk there. I felt so shaky and unstable. I got back and layed down. Brandon told me that the doctor had come to him and told him that they retrieved 8 great looking eggs. My RE wanted 8-10 so he achieved his goal. He doesn't like to get more than that because you have a great chance of OHSS and no great chance of pregnancy. He says smaller numbers are usually better quality. I hope he's right!! It took me around 20 minutes to feel more normal again. I had to use the bathroom again...that IVF really went through me. Brandon helped me that time and said I was walking much better. A few minutes later the nurse came and explained my discharge information. I have to take antibiotics and Medrol (suppresses inflammation) for 4 days. Tomorrow I go back to taking baby aspirin and start my progesterone inserts.
After we left the doctor's office we got something to eat because I was starving! We got home about 11:15 and layed down to watch a movie. We got through about 15 minutes of the movie and then fell asleep. We got up at 3. Brandon had to go do some work but my parents are going to come visit me about 5. I'm just laying on the couch relaxing. I hope everyone has a wonderful day!!

Monday, May 4, 2009

Retrieval Time Set

I went to the doctor this morning and had another ultrasound and blood work done. My veins are so mad at me!! My ultrasound looked good and my estrogen level is 1,549. I have to take my novarel (trigger shot) at 10:30 tonight. Tomorrow I go in for more blood work to see if my body absorbed the shot. Then my retrieval is set for Wednesday at 8:30!!! I can't believe it is in 2 days!!! Please pray that we get good quality eggs and they fertilize well!! I'm going do pilates to relieve some of this stress. My body is worn out from all of this. The shots don't really bother me but the driving 45 minutes each way to get to the doctor is killing me!! I hope everyone had a wonderful Monday morning!!

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Dr's Appointment/Tentative Egg Retrieval

I had a doctor's appointment this morning at 8:00. It was sooo hard for me to wake up at 6:15 on a Sunday!! I had my ultrasound and my follicles were measuring around 17. My RE told me that I would probably take 2 more days of stims and go back Tuesday for another ultrasound and have egg retrieval on Thursday. I was suppose to have it on Tuesday but my little follies are taking longer to grow;) When I called to get my Estrogen level it was 1083 so they told me to come back in tomorrow morning for another ultrasound and estrogen check and my retrieval would probably be on Wednesday!! It keeps changing. No matter what my transfer won't be on Mother's Day since it has been pushed back. I was a little upset because I thought that was such a good sign...but I shouldn't worry about signs because after every IUI I thought it would be the perfect time and it didn't work so I'm leaving it in God's hands!! He knows the best time!! I hope that we have enough to freeze so that if it doesn't work we will be able to do a FET cycle. Please say some prayers!!
Yesterday I went to one of my best friends baby showers. There was a girl there that did IVF and is now carrying triplets. They put back 2 embryos and 1 split. There was also a girl there pregnant with twins...i'm not sure if she went through infertility or not. It was reassuring though!
Today after my appointment I went to my parents and ate breakfast. Then we went to church, came home, ate lunch, took naps;), ate cheesecake, and relaxed. Now I'm at home and I'm going spend some time with Brandon. I hope everyone had a wonderful weekend!!

Friday, May 1, 2009

Dr's Appointment

I had a doctor's appointment this morning. My ultrasound showed 10 follicles ranging from 8-14. I was expecting them to be a little bigger but my doctor said that was okay. My estrogen level was 520. I go back on Sunday for another checkup to see when I'm going to take the HCG shot and schedule retrieval. This is wearing me out!!! When I got to school I felt so EXHAUSTED:) I'm so glad it's Friday and I can sleep late tomorrow and not have to rush to get to the doctor. When I got home I took an hour nap and it felt so good. Brandon has drill this weekend so he left at 5:30. My brother came home for a week so I went to meet him and my parents for dinner. He lives in Memphis because he is going to optometry school there. He just finished and now has to complete his internships. He passed his boards so I'm soooo proud of him!! In a few months I will have a brother that is a doctor;) Since I was at my parents when it was time to do my shot, my brother wanted to mix it and give it to me. He did a great job. It hurt even less than when I do it myself. I wish he was here everyday!! Well I'm going take a bath and relax. I hope everyone has a great weekend!

Thursday, April 30, 2009

Worry Wart

It was a normal day except I'm starting to be a worrier.
These are my worries for the day:
1. That I will catch swine flu and not be able to finish this IVF cycle....I know it's crazy!
2. That I will get some kind of other sickness and not be able to finish...I work around 4 year olds so it could happen...
3. I have had a small amount of brown spotting the last two days...is that okay??? If anyone knows please let me know!!
4. That when I go for retrieval there won't be any mature eggs.
5. That none of the eggs will fertilize.
6. That none of the eggs will make it to blastocyst.
7. That I won't finish everything at work before the end of the school year.

It feels a lot better to let it out!! Please say some prayers for us that this works out. I hope everyone had a wonderful Thursday.