Friday, July 31, 2009

Odd and End

Summer is coming to an end and I'm so sad;) This has been the perfect time to be pregnant. I was so sick that I was very happy not to have to be at work!! The baby loves to sleep late and take naps;) It was also perfect because Brandon had to have surgery. He had to lay around for 4 weeks so it made me feel even better to just lay around. It was really great spending so much time with him. All my friends asked if I got tired of being around him so much. Nope..I loved every minute of it. He's never one to sleep late because he's a farmer so he has to wake up early. Having him sleep late with me was like heaven. Our time is coming to an end. His foot is healing and school is near. Our first official teacher day is August 12th. The majority of the students come on the 14th. Since my students are 4 they don't start until August 26th. I will be 18 weeks when the start and I'm praying that I feel better!!
Speaking of feeling better, I felt pretty good for once last night while Brandon and I were watching a movie. This morning I also felt better. Well I decided to take a new vitamin that the OB gave me to try. It had a fish oil pill with it....big MISTAKE!! I was sitting on the couch drinking hot tea and talking to Brandon when all of a sudden I felt AWFUL. I barely made it to the bathroom before I threw up. I don't know if I've ever thrown up so much at one time. Brandon even came in to check on me. The baby does not like those was awful.
I also have a question for you ladies. How does it feel when your uterus is growing?? I know everyone is different and it is hard to explain but could you tell me? Every now and then I feel like this heavy sensation in my uterus kind of like when you are about to start that normal??? I have also been having really bad headaches...any advice for that? Thanks!! I hope everyone has a good weekend.

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

14 weeks

Getting bigger!!!
How Far Along? 14 weeks
Total Weight Gained/Loss? well I gained some for IVF and then I lost four I'm up that 4 I guess +4

Maternity Clothes occassional BE band but that's all so far
Sleep I've been sleeping a lot since I haven't been feeling good!
Best Moment of the Week getting to see the baby moving all around!

Movement- not yet but can't wait!!
Food Craving- I've been craving apple pie a la mode...but I haven't had it yet
Food aversions- still meat and eggs
Morning sickness?- yes, I'm hoping I feel better soon!
Gender- we will know in 4 weeks!

Labor Signs- hopefully not for 26 more weeks
Belly Button- in
What I miss- having energy
What I'm looking forward to- feeling the baby move and finding out the gender..and for the hematoma to go away so I stop bleeding!!

Weekly Wisdom- God has a plan for us...we just have to trust in that plan!!
Milestones- 2nd trimester!!

Monday, July 27, 2009

13 weeks 6 days/ultrasound

We had a doctor's appointment today to check on the hematoma. I sure don't like this hematoma but it has given me more chances to see our miracle;) We had our ultrasound first. The baby has changed so much in 2 weeks. He looks so "real" now;) Looking at the ultrasound you would never think that this baby is only 3 1/2 inches long!! The baby was showing off for us by moving all around and waving his arms and legs. Everything looked great with the baby. Unfortunately the hematoma is still there but very small. The said hopefully it will be gone by 20 weeks. I then had to do blood work and talked to the doctor. I asked him if it was crazy to be scared of an incompetent cervix. He said no it wasn't but I don't have an increased risk for it so I should try not to worry. My cervix was closed and long today!! I had been getting mixed reviews about eating blue cheese and cold ham so I asked him about that. He told me NOT TO EAT IT!! So sad because that's 2 of he only things I have been craving and ham is one of the only meats I can tolerate at this point! I will do anything for my baby though...SMALL sacrifice. He told me that I would have another ultrasound in 4 weeks to look at the hematoma and hopefully find out the gender!! I am so thankful that we had a good appointment and the baby looks good!! THANK YOU GOD!!! I hope everyone had a wonderful day;)

Our little "alien" baby

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Prayers for fellow blogger friends...

Hi guys! I have a couple of prayer request for two of my blogger friends. The first is for Stacey. She had her twins at 27 weeks. Her beautiful boys are named Connor and Colby. Tuesday Connor passed away. Please pray for Stacey, her husband, and for Colby's fast recovery.

My second request is for Sarah. Sarah got awful news on Monday when her doctor told her that her pregnancy was chemical. Please pray that Sarah and her husband find peace.

Saturday, July 18, 2009

Wimberly WImberly Go Away

Well yesterday and today, I have had dull sensations in my cervix, every now and then. The Wimberly in me started to worry (of course). I debated on if I should check my cervix. I washed my hands and checked it. I was surprised to find that it was soft and felt slightly open...the tip of my finger could fit in it. I was worried so I called the on call doctor. She told me that they don't like patients to check their own cervix..I didn't expect they did. She said what I was telling her seemed really normal and if I had really bad cramps or tons of bleeding then they would be worried. I asked her if it could be from the hematoma and she said yes. I forgot to ask her if it could be from the progesterone inserts. So my questions ladies is should I be worried about this??? My next appointment is on July 27th. What do you think???

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

12 weeks

Well I decided to finally start documenting belly shots and information about the pregnancy. I think I was too nervous before...I'm trying my best not to be;)

How Far Along? 12 weeks

Total Weight Gained/Loss? down 4 pounds from starting IVF treatments

Maternity Clothes occassional BE band but that's all so far

Sleep was really good but for some reason the last two days my back has been hurting

Best Moment of the Week getting the doppler in the mail!!

Movement- not yet but can't wait!!

Food Craving- crackers with cheese with apple slices on the side

Food aversions- meat and eggs

Morning sickness?- yes!! I only throw-up when I wake up early though.

Gender- not sure!!

Labor Signs- hopefully not for 28 more weeks

Belly Button- in

What I miss- hot, hot baths and a cold beer

What I'm looking forward to- another ultrasound on the 27th, movement, and finding out the gender

Weekly Wisdom- the only person in control is in him!! (I'm trying;)

Milestones- When my OB said you have a 1% chance of something happening now!!

Friday, July 10, 2009

First OB visit/11w2d

Well I had my first OB appointment today. My wonderful mom went with me since Brandon had surgery. The doctor made me feel much better! He was not at all worried about my hematoma. He said as the baby gets bigger it stretches out making it bleed more. He told me that mine is so small now (about the size of your thumbnail) that it shouldn't bleed much longer. It's so crazy that so much blood can come from something so small!! He said that I should get back to exercising 24 hours after it stops bleeding. I will be so happy to get back to doing that!! It's been about 9 weeks since I've exercised and that is NOT LIKE ME:) We are going to have an ultrasound in 2 weeks to check the hematoma out and make sure it's getting smaller.
He asked me if i had any questions and my only one was about the belly hair;) He laughed and said that was normal. He said that I could bleach or nair it off after 13 weeks. 2 more weeks and then I'll feel so much better;)
We then went to the procedure room and I had my routine pap..yay (eyes rolling)!! Then he pulled out the doppler. He felt my stomach first and said there's a small bump..I bet that's where the baby is! He put the Doppler on it and found the heartbeat right away!! He said that was a wonderful sign and it drops my miscarriage rate to 1%. My mom said I'm so glad you told her that!! Overall it was a great appointment and it made me feel much better. I wish we could have had the ultrasound today so my mom could have seen CM..but I guess I'm just spoiled from my weekly ultrasounds at RE's office!!
After the appointment my mom and I met my dad for lunch. My meatless lunch was great..I had Yaki Udon with no meat!! Overall it was a great day!! THanks MOM!!! i LOVE YOU;)
I also discovered that I throw up the mornings that I have to wake up early. My 9 week appointment was early and I threw up. This morning I woke up early and of course threw up. So now I'm even happier that I have been off for the majority of the 1st trimester or it would have been A LOT worse;)
Thanks to everyone who commented on my last always make me feel better!! I did order a doppler by the way. I ordered it the day before my bleeding episode but it hasn't come in yet! Tonight is my monthly girls card night! I hope everyone has a great night!

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Hospital Visit

Warning..this may be a TMI post. Yesterday around 7:30 I felt blood. I checked my pantyliner and sure enough it had bright red blood on it. I got home and went to the bathroom and it was A LOT. It made the toilet water red again (like the first time 6 weeks ago). I had to wipe A LOT to not see anymore blood. I showed Brandon and he told me not to worry. I started crying anyway and called my friend to see if I could use her doppler. She brought it right over and was crying as she handed it to me (GREAT FRIEND). We found the heartbeat but I still felt anxious. A few minutes later I went to the bathroom again and it was the exact same thing. I called Brandon and for the first time in this pregnancy he looked a little worried. He called his stepmom who works at the Woman's hospital and she said it was probably the clot but we could go in if we wanted. Brandon said lets go because I know you will be a nervous wreck if we don't. We headed over there. It felt like the longest 45 minutes of my life!! She had called the center so they took us right back with out waiting!! The put me in a room and I changed into a gown. They told me to put my old pad in the garbage so the doctor could see it. They then gave me this huge pad to put between my legs..which is kind of hard when they tell you not to wear underwear!
I then got in the bed and the nurse came and checked all my vitals and asked me routine questions. She then left and came back saying the doctor wanted her to check and see if my cervix was closed. She checked and it was...huge sigh of relieve. The doctor then came in and talked about my subcorinic hematoma and said it was probably that. She said that she would have been worried also and she would have come in too. She said I'm a mama now and the worry will never stop. She told me not to feel bad about coming in because anyone else would have done the same thing. That made me feel really good.
A few minutes later someone came and got me for ultrasound. The ultrasound tech found the baby right away and said " I have a lot to look at but I want you to see the baby so that you have piece of mind." It was so fabulous seeing that beating heartbeat. I wanted to jump off the table and get on my knees and praise God. She then turned the screen and only she and Brandon could see. She was trying to measure the heartbeat but the baby was moving around too much. Brandon looked so excited. He said the legs and arms were moving up and down and then the head was moving. He must have gotten tired because he settled down enough for her to measure the heartbeat which was 163. The baby also measured 11w 1 day. She then took awhile to look at everything else..ovaries, cervix, etc.
I then went back to my room and waited for the doctor to come back. She came and explained that I did still have the hematoma. She said that I would definitely bleed more and it would be bright red so not to worry. She said she was worried about the fact that I'm still on baby aspirin and that could be making it worse. She told to ask my OB about it Friday when I go in. She told me that sometimes hematomas resolve themselves by 13 or 14 weeks and sometimes they last the whole pregnancy!! I sure hope not!! Brandon said if that's the case can we just keep some spare clothes at the hospital;) She then released us and gave me some papers for my OB on Friday.
That was the most frightened I've been the whole pregnancy! Everyone says "Don't worry"! They can say that because they aren't living with this all the time. They aren't scared every time they go to the bathroom. They haven't been through so much heartache to get pregnant. They don't have their WHOLE heart and all their dreams invested into something so precious. They haven't watched their baby grow every week on ultrasounds and have such a fear that they wouldn't see that baby again. I know you girls have lived that same worry. Thanks for listening..sorry this post was so long;)

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

worry worry go away

Well Brandon and I have been stuck in the house since last Wednesday. We both needed to get out a little while today so we decided to go to my school. I could do some stuff and Brandon could still sit or lay on bean bag chairs. We stayed about 2 hours and then my patient was feeling bad so we went home. We took a nap. When I woke up from my nap there was more red spotting. Now I am worried that I did too much. Please pray that all is well with little CM.

Friday, July 3, 2009

A graduate that still needs help...

Well even though I graduated from my RE's office, I had to call them this morning. When I got out of bed this morning I had dark reddish brown blood fill my pantyliner. I'm used to spotting and even a little more, the problem is that yesterday I didn't have any, so I didn't expect this. I called the office and the said they were almost positive it was the remaining clot. They said I could come in if I need reassurance but that they weren't worried. I told them that I was okay...if it wouldn't have cost me 225 and been an hour a way..I probably would have gone. Now I'm just praying that it is the clot and hopefully it is almost gone.
I forgot to mention in my last post that we are calling the baby CM. This is the initials for our boy name and our girl name. We will call the baby that until we know the gender. Someone also asked if I was still taking progesterone. Yes, I am down to one insert a day and will take it till I am 12 weeks. I am not taking estrace anymore but I am still on baby aspirin. I had my first pregnancy nosebleed last night. I was brushing my teeth and did not expect it!!
Well, I have to write a lesson plan for a computer class that I am helping to teach in a couple weeks, so I better go. I have been putting it off because it's based on the movie To Kill a Mockingbird. It is geared for high school English. I teach elementary school so this is stressing me out;) I hope everyone has a great day!!

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Eventful Day

Sorry it's taken me so long to post about yesterday!! Brandon and I woke up and got ready for our long day. We left the house about 9:15. Brandon got a ticket on the way to the RE's we were about 15 minutes late;) For some reason I was SOOO nervous about this appointment. I don't know Wimberly was kicking in a guess. I think as a IF girl you always expect the other shoe to drop and for something to take away your good fortune. I'm trying not to think like that though!! We went in to the ultrasound room and waited for the doctor. He walked in and got started. I was so thankful to see that beautiful baby on the screen with that flickering heartbeat. He said "he's looking more like a baby now"! The baby's legs and arms were clearly visible. He even moved one of his arms for us...probably wanted to say "mama quit worrying"! He showed us the umbilical cord and told me that the clot is getting much smaller. He said the spotting should stop soon...HOPEFULLY!! Then he told me I could get up. Before I was all the way up he said well it looks like graduation day!! I busted out crying!! He told me that it would be alright, that my doctor was right down the hall and I could stop in and visit whenever I wanted. This didn't help...I kept on crying and hugging him. I told him thank you for everything he had done. Then he left and I got dressed. I composed myself but that only lasted a minute. When I walked out the room all the nurses were standing there and they had tears in their eyes. I hugged them all and they told me to come visit so they could see my belly grow and bring in ultrasound pictures. Then we left. It was very emotional. I have been going there A LOT for a year now. It is a comforting, warm place where you don't feel like an outcast;) I also love that you never have to wait...I'm really going to miss that!! The only thing I won't miss is spending 225 every week for an ultrasound...though I will miss those weekly ultrasounds!! It's bittersweet..I'm so thankful to be progressing well and moving on to a "regular" pregnancy but I will miss their reassurance.

After the appointment we had to move on to Brandon's doctor for his surgery. He checked in at 11 and was taken to surgery around 12:20. The surgery went well. We left at around 3 and drove home. Brandon's foot was bleeding so we had to wrap more gauze around it. He was okay until the numbing medicine wore off..then he started to feel some pain. He has been sleeping all day on and off so hopefully everything will be okay.

I have felt really bad since last night. I have had a bad headache and been nauseous more than usual. I will take it though to make a healthy baby!!

I hope everyone has a wonderful day. I'm going check on my patient!!