Monday, September 29, 2008



I just got back from the RE's office. My temp went back up to 100.7 today so they made me leave work. I went straight to the Dr's office and he told me to take tylenol. He said if I don't feel better by tomorrow then I should take the month off from trying to concieve. If I don't take the month off he wants me to go in for a Hysterosalpingography (run dye through your fallopian tubes to see if they are blocked). HE said that he wants to do this because we had 2 eggs both months that we tried and enough sperm so we should have gotten pregnant by now. He wants to make sure I don't have blocked tubes and he said even if I don't, the procedure will increase my chances anyway. Has anyone ever done one of these procedures? I cried on the way home because it will cost us $800 more this month to do the procedure. Everything else already totals up to 1200 so that will be 2000. My parents said they would help me. I knew they would, but I hate to ask them money. I'm no longer their responsiblity...I feel so quilty asking them for money. I love them with all my heart and I know they love me with all their heart and they would do anything for me. It still feels bad asking them to help me when I am usually so responsible and independent.
It is so frustrating that we have to go through this to have a baby. When I get to heaven the first thing I will ask God is why he gives people who have abortions babies and makes it so hard for people who really want a baby. I know I shouldn't judge...and everthing has a purpose, but some days are harder than others!! I am praying that God makes me strong and helps me patiently wait out his plan.

Sunday, September 28, 2008


Well I started my period on was heavy for a few hours (which is unusual for Day 1). The next day my period was light which I thought was weird because I am usually heaviest on Day 2. Saturday night I started to feel really bad...body aches, fever 101.5, etc. Today my period is pretty much nonexistent. I still have a fever of 101.5 and my body feels unbelievably sore!! Should I be worried about this. My DH told me to call our RE but it is Sunday so he only takes emergency calls...I don't think this is an emergency. I have an appointment with him tomorrow. Has anyone ever experienced this?

Saturday, September 27, 2008

Cycle 3 Day 2

Well I called the doctor and I have an appointment on Monday at 4. I feel like an old pro at this. I am going to ask him if there is anything different I can do like back to back IUI's. I think we must be timing it wrong or something. We have had 2 good follicles both times and 34 million what is the problem???? I think if we did the IUI the day after the trigger shot in addition to two days after it would help out a lot!! Has anyone done 2? I am also wondering if I should be taking more than 50 mg of Clomid. My husband said I shouldnt take more since I am making 2 follicles a month...but more than 2 might help. I am just praying that this is the month. This entire process I have had a feeling that I wouldn't get pregnant with the 1st or 2nd IUI. I have always had the feeling that it would take that weird? I hope my feeling is right.
One of my oldest and dearest friends found out that she was pregnant this week. I was hoping that I would be on the exact track as her. I mean who wouldn't want to have the same due date as one of their best friends? I am so happy for her. She had a miscarriage in April and has been trying as long as us to conceive. I hope I am soon to follow so we can share in this experience. Keep those prayers coming my way:) Thank you God for all the blessings in my life!!

Friday, September 26, 2008

AF comes to town!!

Well, I started! I am okay though. I cried a little when I saw my friend who is also going through this. She talked to me about it and it made me feel better because I know that she COMPLETELY understands. I feel that I have gotten so much out of this experience, even though it has been the hardest thing I've ever been through. No, I take that back...Brandon being in Iraq was the hardest thing for me. So since I've been through the hardest thing in my life...I will just take this as a learning exprience.
From this experience I have gotten closer to people that I know who have also been through this. I have gotten much, much closer to God. I have become stronger. I have learned to value Brandon and I's relationship so much more. I have looked at the true blessings in my life. All of these things have made me a better person. So I am thankful for this time because I know God has a reason for it. I will one day know what that is...for now I will sit back and enjoy the blessings that I do have. I will also sing "Bring the rain"..........
I spoke too soon...minutes later SPOTTING! Which is weird because my temp was back up this morning. Now I need you to pray for me to be strong and understand that God knows the right time for me:)
No spotting yet....Pray extra hard girls!! I need all the prayers you can give me:)

Thursday, September 25, 2008

My BBT was lower this I going to start? I am praying that God makes me strong if I do!! Say some prayers for me today!!

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

My blogger friend Elaine always has such powerful insight into God's plan for us. She is also going through the trials of infertility. She states:

Jeremiah 29:11. The devotion was about God's Plans for our lives. There were three main points.
1. In times of trials in our life, we discover how faithful God is.
2. God knows what we can handle.
3. He will "make a way" so we can exit this season of our life stronger, and ready for what He has next.
The fact that we have a problem is a sign that we also have a promise! It's only a matter of time before God reveals the solution.

Isn't that awesome?

It's been 13 days!

It's been 13 days since my 2nd IUI. Last month I spotted on day 14 and started my period on day we'll see. I'm trying not to get my hopes up but I want to be pregnant so bad. I know every situation is one that we needed to be in at the time and the outcome always benefits us in the long run. I'm hoping that God thinks I've learned enough and he is ready for me to have a baby. If he thinks I still have more to learn than I will pray about it and try to be strong:)

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

12 days and counting

It has been 12 days since my IUI....the count is on. Will Friday be a good day (no period) or a bad day (period)? Only God knows so I am trying to let it go...

I just had a wonderful talk with one of my best friends. She is also trying to concieve. Our cycle is almost exactly the same. It would be so wonderful if we were both pregnant this month....something I always hoped for. It would be wonderful to share that experience with her!! All I can do is pray that God knows the right time for both of us.

My other email friend found out she was pregnant today!!! We had our IUI's 4 days apart. I am so excited for her. She has been praying for this for so long. It made me realize that IUI's do work, sometimes it just takes time.

I am going to work out and destress....more tomorrow!!

Monday, September 22, 2008

Bring the Rain

I found this while reading an amazing blog entitled Bring the Rain!! It is such a powerful poem! I hope it gives you as much comfort as it gives me.

"Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings your glory
And I know there'll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain"
Mercy Me, "Bring the Rain"

11 DPO

Still waiting!! It has been 11 days. We should know by Friday if we are pregnant or not. Only God knows. I cannot change the outcome so I am thinking positve and believing in his plan!

Today was really good. I didn't think about the outcome hardly at all. My pre k class did really well today which made it so much more enjoyable:) I got home from work early and cooked spaghetti and meatballs. While it was cooking I worked out and watched a movie with Brandon. I am ready to relax and watch all our favorite Monday night shows!! It has been a great day:)

I am also excited about one of my blogger friends because she may be pregant. We had our IUI's 4 days apart. I have been praying for her and I hope this is her month!!!

Sunday, September 21, 2008


This video made me cry!!!

Just Waiting!

Well it has been 10 days since my second IUI. I am patiently waiting for the two weeks to end:) I know in my heart that only God knows when I should concieve a child. It has still been hard struggling with the disappoint that every month brings. Each month you hope for it to be the right time and your heart breaks when it isn't. I have 4 more days to wait to see if this month will be a celebration or another heartache. We will see what happens....
I have to go to a wedding shower after church today. I hope it goes well for the bride. She has been disappointed lately because her reception hall is no longer available and her wedding is in a week. I hope it all works out for her.
We also have the insurance agent coming to our house today to see how much damage we had from the hurricane. Hopefully we will get enough money to get a new roof.
My parents are on their way to Colorado to visit my grandparents. I am praying that they have a safe trip. I always miss them on Sunday because it is my day to visit them.