Tuesday, May 12, 2009

A little sad...

Well 2 of my blogger friends: mary and carrie are always talking about how they feel like Wemberly Worried...it's a popular children's book. In the book Wemberly worries about EVERYTHING. I think i'm also starting to be a Wemberly. All night I was worried about how I was laying in bed and if it would hurt the embryos, etc. I'm even more worried now because my doctor's office called and said my remaining 2 embryos did not make it to freeze. That's so disappointing!!! Does that mean that the 2 they implanted wouldn't have made it either?? I keep telling myself that God is going to lead me through this and he has an ultimate plan for me that I don't know about just yet. PLease send some prayers my way...I don't want to have to go through all this again. ((HUGS))

17 comments:

cady said...

your embies not making it to freeze doesn't have anything to do with the ones they transferred. your uterus is a much better environment than the lab. i am a worrier too. i worried that everything i did would mess up my embies, and even now that it worked, i worry that something will happen. after going through infertility it's hard not to worry. just know you're not alone. :)

ashley said...

I'm sure others who have gone through IVF feel the same way as you do right now. Even if you don't go through IVF, worrying when trying to conceive is inevitable. The only advice I can give is to put your trust in God. Keep your chin up!

Carrie said...

Oh, I am thinking of you as you tackle Wemberly! I know how easy it is to worry and how natural!

As Cady said, your uterus is a better place and they chose the BEST embryos to put back, the BEST! Those are going to be your babies. :) I am sorry you didn't have any to freeze, but I am sure you wouldn't need them anyway.

Thinking of you, hoping and sending peace your way.

Hugs,
Carrie

Laura said...

I stumbled upon your blog, and also struggle with worrying. But I have been able to find comfort in Matthew 6:27--"Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?". After two miscarriages, this verse reminds me that God has my life (and the life of my unborn child(ren)) in His hands. Our worrying isn't doing anything to influence His perfect plan. My thoughts and prayers are with you!

Melody said...

I'm sure your embabies are just fine! They are where they are supposed to be as the other 2 were not! They will be fine! I'm sure they implanted the 2 better ones just like you said yesterday! Keep your chin up, we are praying for you!

Amber said...

Im another worrier but always try to remember that God has a perfect plan for every step of our life and we have to trust in him to carry out those steps.

Stace said...

Unfortunately worrying is part of the territory. :( I agree with what others say about the 2 embies not making it to the freeze not meaning anything about the 2 your transferred. Remember, they transfer the best. Focus on the two embryos they did transfer-- continue to take it easy, do the right things, and HOPE! You have a lot of people thinking about you and praying for you. :)

twondra said...

Oh, sweetie, I'm so sorry about your other 2 embies. How disappointing. But, the 2 they put in you were a lot better than those 2, so I wouldn't give up hope yet.

Thinking and praying so hard for you. ((HUGS))

Straubles said...

We had the exact same thing happen to us. None were strong enough to make it to the freeze---which was a terrible blow to us because we were hoping to not go thru the entire IVF cycle again! We had 2 transferred and 5 months later we have our sweet little girl on the way! All it takes is one--and those little embies are in the best place they can be right now!! Praying for you!

beth ewing said...

i'm so sorry your embryos didn't make it to freeze but i really dont' think that has an bearing on the one's the transferred. remember they picked the very best to transfer. as for the worrying, i wish i could be help. i think part of it is a defense mechanism b/c of all we've been through. if we worry and prepare ourselves for the worst...we won't be disappointed. i'll pray God takes your worry away.

The Patterson's said...

I had this same thing happen with my first IVF...transferred two great embryos and the two we were hoping to freeze didn't meet the criteria. When I asked my doctor, he just told me that they are all different, and you can't relate the results of one or two to the rest (even though we want to). I felt the same way you are feeling, but just know that you have done and are doing all you can to give these two the best opportunity to continue to grow. Praying for patience and peace during the rest of your two week wait!

Hoping for our own Peanut said...

im sorry your others didnt make it to freeze, but i really dont think youll need them. the ones transfered were wonderful and im sure they are cooking away in mama right now!!

Just Another Infertile said...

First of all, good news on your embies. They both look fantastic! Try not to worry (I know easier said than done) about the other embryos. I truly believe they do survive better in you than in a lab. The two strongest are in you and that is all that matters.

Kristy said...

I'm praying for you and those two tiny babies, Ashley.

Mimi said...

I am praying so hard for you right now. That doesn't mean the ones in your tummy will not make it. They are exactly where they need to be to thrive!

Kami

rescogitatae said...

Ugh, I know what you mean about worrying. I have been wondering what my embies have been up to, all day, every day, since Saturday. I'm driving myself crazy.

I'm sorry that your other two didn't make it to freeze. The lab environment really isn't ideal for them, however, so I don't think it says anything about the two that they transferred. They chose the best ones, and all you can do now is hope they appreciate the nice womb you've provided!

Big hugs. Hang in there. When is your beta?
T.

courtney said...

I'm truely sorry those others didn't make it to freeze, BUT, I agree with everyone here, that has no relation to the two wonderful embryos in you right now.
Good luck!