Kenz had surgery

On Wednesday kenz had her adenoids removed and tubes put in her ears! She did great! She also got her ears pierced while she was under;)

God has a plan

The funny thing is, I didn't even cry yesterday. I made Brandon call because I didn't want to know at work. He told me at 4. I didn't even believe him at first. I just sat there for a little while and stared into space. Then I looked at my little girl, told myself to "put on my big girl panties" and move on. I put on my running clothes, put her in a stroller and we went running. I hadn't done that since I started this journey. I then played outside with her for an hour.
I'm not sure where God will lead me next. I know his plan his greater than mine. I also know that I have a wonderful husband and daughter and a great family and friends.
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Praying!

We are still hear praying that we will hear good news soon;) all prayers would be appreciated!!!

6dp5dt

Not much to report. Nope, I haven't poas! I didn't for my last ivf cycle either...I waited for my beta. Why you ask...because I'm too nervous;) I would appreciate all your prayers though!! I hope everyone is having a fabulous weekend!!

2ww

Hanging out with this girl sure makes the 2 week wait more tolerable!!! I'm so blessed what ever my outcome;) praying for another blessing though!!!

What others take for granted

A few hours ago I wrote that I was sad that I had no embryos to freeze. I'm still in awe of that. I find it hard to believe that 5 embryos looked good yesterday and none looked good today. I will leave that to God though.
As I sit here by myself on the couch watching tv (something that rarely happens these days), I have lots of time to think. Isn't it amazing that so many people get pregnant every day and go about their business like it's nothing. They never have to worry about the two week wait, they never have to go through fertility treatments, they never worry about miscarriage. That's sooo foreign to me. Infertility makes pregnancy such a gift but also such a worry. It makes you constantly worry about every twitch, symptom, pain, etc. It makes you pray every minute that you get a healthy baby. When you do it's such a gift and you get so mad at those people who take it for granted. I have always said that when I get to heaven I will ask God why people who want babies have a hard time and people who don't conceive them easily.
I also know that this is my "thing" from God. I believe everyone has a "struggle" in life that brings them closer to God and this is mine. I'm praying that these two embryos are doing well inside and the thrive and grow into healthy babies.

Sad

The doctor's office just called. Out of the 5 embryos we had left...none made it to freeze. I don't know how that's possible. They all looked good yesterday. What happen??? Please pray that this works girls because we won't be able to do it again.

Transfer

We got to the clinic at 7:30 this morning. We met with the RE and the embryologist. He said they picked the best 2 embryos and are waiting to see if we can freeze any of the other 5 tomorrow...fingers crossed!!!
I then took a Valium, put on my gown, and brandon put on his scrubs. They wheeled me in to the surgical room and strapped my legs into the stirrups. They cleaned me with soap and water which was cold;)
The embryologist came in with the embryos in incubators and Brandon looked at them in a Microscope.
They then transferred them and then drained my bladder so I wouldn't have to move. I rested for 30 minutes and then we left for home!
I'm praying that they stick and we get a healthy baby!!! Happy Sunday everyone!!

Day 3 embryo report

Quick update: all 7 embryos are still thriving and are 8 cells!!! Transfer will be Sunday at 730!!! Pray for me girls!!!

Fertilization

I'm at work but here is a quick report: we got 11 eggs 8 of them were mature and 7 fertilized. Last time we did ivf only 4 fertilized so we are doing good!! Keep praying!!

Retrieval

This morning I got to walk McKenzie to school! She was so proud to ride her bike to school and let her teacher see her doing that. Usually she is carpooled to school from her babysitters house.
After that we left for the doctor. We got there at 10. There were three ladies before me so I had to wait a little but that's ok. They took me back around 11 and within 5 minutes I was out. I love that medicine! I woke up after and was slightly out of it but heard someone tell me that they got 11 eggs! I closed my eyes and relaxed until brandon walked in. He said did they tell you they got 11!!
The nurse then came and gave me the best tasting little coke! She checked me several times and then discharged me. As she was wheeling me out I saw the dr. He said " you get better with age, we got more than last time!" They said they will call tomorrow with the fertilization report.

Brandon and I left and I got a huge box of sushi. It was 1230 and I was starving!! I came home and slept till 430 when Kenz came home.
Pray that they fertilize girls!!! Have a good night!

Follicle check #3

I woke up at 6 this morning and headed to the doctor. It's a lot harder when it's the weekend and you want to sleep late;) I got there at 740 and was seen shortly after. I had 14 follicles. 7 on each side and my estrogen was 928. I am done with stims. I took my ganerlix tonight and will set my alarm for 1 am to do my trigger shot. I hope I can focus at that time! I go to the dr at 1030 tomorrow to make sure it was absorbed. My retrieval is set for Tuesday at 11 am. Please say some prayers for us;)
After the doctor today I went to have breakfast with my brother which was really nice. We don't get to hang out one-on-one much anymore. Then at 10 I had to go get brandon from the airport. He then went back to work and I spent the day with Kenz at my parents.
Last night we went to Sesame Street live with my parents which was cute. The picture is kenz and my mom at rhe show! Hope everyone else is having a great weekend!

Follicle check #2

I'm worn out;) driving 45 minutes to the dr every other morning is very tiring! I leave my house at 630 so I can get there by 720 and get seen first! My principal doesn't dock my days if I get to school by 830. So far I've made it!! This morning was tough because Brandon is on a business trip. I had to wake Kenz up at 6 to get her to the sitter (she opened early for me;). When I got the doctor I realized I left my purse at home 45 min away! Thank God I didn't need gas;)
My estrogen was 425 today and there was 10 measurable follicles and several smaller ones. I'm pretty much on track with my last ivf cycle. I go back on Sunday.
Right now I'm missing brandon and kenz. My mother-in-law wanted to watch all her grand kids tonight and Kenz really wanted to go so I'm home alone. Tomorrow night we are going to Elmo live with my parents. Hope everyone has a great weekend!

Follicle Check #1

I had an appointment Monday for an estrogen check. My estrogen was 118 so I continued with the same dose of stims. I  had prayed that it would stay the same and I wouldn't have to buy more!!! Thank you God!!
Today I had an estrogen and follicle check. My ultrasound showed 6 follicles on each side so we have 12 as of now. My estrogen was 201. I will keep taking 2 vials of Menopar and 2 vials of Bravelle and I will add ganerilex so I don't ovulate. I go back on Friday for another round of checks.
Yesterday, a lady at my school came up to me and said God told her to talk to me. She said that he told her to tell me not to worry and that he took so long because he didn't want me to worry about losing what I had. I hope this is a good omen and this IVF works for us!! Please keep praying ladies:)
I hope everyone is having a great week!!

Started stims!

I'm on day two of shots! They are going well. Yesterday I was in a hurry and I was about to take my shot when I realized I hadn't taken a pic of meds. This time is so different then last time because I'm much busier! I hope that I can relax and keep my stress level low. I don't want anything to mess up this cycle.
On a different note; kenz and i had a great day! she had dance pictures this morning. My mom came with us. She did great with individuals but cried a little on the group picture because another little girl started crying. After pictures, we went to the zoo. Kenz and I took a nap this afternoon and then went to church. Pretty awesome day!
Hope everyone is having a great weekend!

Trial transfer

Trial transfer went well. My uterus "passed" the test;) my estrogen level was 25 which is good. I start stims...bravelle and menopar (2 vials of each) on Friday. Happy Monday to all of you and thanks for all the prayers and comments. They really mean a lot!

Ivf starts tomorrow

Tomorrow is my mock transfer. It's also when my fees are due. I'm still very nervous this time around. We could do so much with 14,000. It's such a risk. Hopefully with prayer and Gods blessing it will be a risk that we were meant to take. Please pray for us;) have a great week!!

Ivf scares

The first time we did ivf, we were childless. We would have done anything to have a baby! The money never crossed our minds.
This time, we have a perfect three year-old! It makes it so much scarier!! What if we spend 14,000 and it doesn't work. We could have put that in her college fund, gone to Disney, and been out of debt.
Please pray that we find peace and that this works. We can't afford to do it twice. Thanks girls!

IVF

I'm still here:) McKenzie has been sick and my husband has been having to stay at his dad's house to take care of his brother, cousin, and twin sisters. His stepmom and dad have been in Norway because her dad is dying. The kids are still in junior high and high school so he has been having to watch over them. He comes home to eat supper with us and help put Kenzie to bed. Then he goes back to their house to get them settled and sleep there. Hopefully they are coming back tomorrow.

On the IVF front, I had my IVF consult last week. I'm not sure why I had to consult and pay 230 when all he had to say was it's basically the same as last time except "time has slipped through your hour glass" so we will start you on 4 vials of injectables instead of two;) I guess i'm getting old:) I will be 32 on February 13...still on the "good" side of IVF:) I am on my 3rd week of birth control and Brandon and I are on antibiotics. On February 18th I go in for my "mock transfer". I start injectables at the end of that week. My egg retrieval should be around March 5th.  Please say some prayers for me ladies!!

Pics

I'm so happy I got to love on this angel today! It made starting my period so much easier! I am blessed! "Glory be to God who by his mighty power at work within us is able to do far more than we could ever dare to ask or even dream of." Ephesians 3:20

It's over

Well this morning I started. I guess we will be moving to ivf:( please say some prayers for us!!

Spotting

I had a tiny bit of spotting earlier. Please pray that this isn't the end...

13dpiui

My IUI was 14 days ago on December 28th..you know what that means....NERVOUSNESS!! I'm praying that I won't start my period!! I would appreciate all the prayers I could get:) I hope everyone is having a wonderful week!!

I'm back!!

Hi!! I can't believe how long it's been since I posted!! We are now going through fertility treatments once again!! I took Menopar injectables this month and had an IUI done on the 28th. I am in the two week wait...praying that it ends up in a baby!! If you could send some prayers my way I would really appreciate it!!

My daughter turns 3 on January 21st! She is amazing and lights up our world!!

 McKenzie at dance class...she's the one laying on ground doing a bas

 McKenzie at her preschool Christmas party. She goes three days a week...1/2 day and LOVES it!!

 My brother giving me an injection. He did he when I did IVF so we were doing it again for luck!!

Christmas morning!! She loved every minute of Christmas this year and was so thankful for everything!!