Only God Knows When: Preparing for the worst...

Trying for #2

October 2012:decided it was time to go back to RE

November 2012: Strep throat so no treatment

December 2012: IUI with injectables (menopar) BFN 1/13/13

January 2012: Decide to go back to IVF. Start birth control on 1/14/2013. Consult scheduled for 1/22/13

February 18: Trial Transfer-all looks good. Estrogen is 25
February 22-Start stims: 2 vials of bravelle and 2 vials of menopar

February 25-Estrogen is 118. Keep taking some dose of stims

February 27-Estrogen is 201. 12 follicles: 6 on each side. Keep same dose of stims but add ganerlix.

March 1: Estrogen is 425. 10 measurable follies and several smaller ones.

March 3: Estrogen s 925 and 14 follies. 7 on each side. Stop taking stims. Take ganerlix at normal time. Take trigger shot at 1 am.

March 4: go to dr to see if trigger shot was absorbed...it was. retrieval tomorrow!

March 5: retrieval at 11:00 am. The retrieved 11 eggs!!

March 6: fertilization report: out of the 11 eggs 8 were mature and 7 fertilized.

March 10: embryo transfer at 7:30. Two beautiful embryos.

IVF CYCLE #1

March 2009-start taking birth control
April 2009- birth control until the 19th, baby asprin, and prenatal vitamins.
April 22, 2009- Ultrasound and Estrogen levels checked. No cysts found, E2 levels below 20.
April 24-26- Start stims-150 of Bravelle and 75 of Menopar.
April 27-Estrogen level checked. Estrogen is 65. Increase stims to 150 Bravelle and 150 of Menopar.
April 29- Estrogen checked and ultrasound. Estrogen is 249. Ultrasound shows 9 follicles. Bravelle 150, Menopar 150, and Ganirelix.
May 1- Estrogen level and ultrsound. Estrogen is 520. Ultrasound shows 10 follicles. Continue with Bravelle 150, Menopar 150, and Ganirelix.
May 3-Estrogen is 1083. Bravelle 150, Menopar 150, and Ganirelix.
May 4- Estrogen is 1,549. Trigger shot..Novarel 10,000 Units.
May 5-Blood test to see if trigger shot was absorbed by my body. It was.
May 6- Retrieval at 8:30. 8 Eggs retrieved.
May 7- Fertilization report= out of the 8 eggs, 6 were mature, and 4 fertilized. Won't know anything else until May 9th.Start edometrium, antibiotic, medrol, and baby asprin.
May 9th- Wonderful news...4 8 cell embroys!! Transfer set for May 11th at 8:30.
May 11th- day five transfer- two beautiful embryos!
May 18th-spotting...is this the end??
May 19th- 1st beta
May 20th- beta results....105. We're PREGNANT
May 21st-2nd beta= 191
May 28th- 3rd beta 2,481
June 3rd- Saw a HEARTBEAT
June 8th- lot of bleeding..very scary...we still se a heartbeat!
June 10th- 7 week ultrasound. Saw a heartbeat. Baby measured 6w6d. Still spotting.
June 17th- 8 week ultrasound. Saw a hearbeat. Baby measured exactly 8 weeks. Still spotting
June 24th- 9 week ultrasound. Heard the heartbeat for the first time. It measured 170...is it a girl?? Baby measured 9w1D. Still spotting...will this every go away??
July 1- 10 week ultrasound. Baby starting to look like a real baby..saw arms and legs and strong heartbeat. We graduated from fertility clinic...very emotional. Still spotting but the blood clot is getting smaller. RE says that it shouldn't last much longer.

Our Journey in a Nutshell!

October 2005-Brandon gets back from Iraq!
November 2005-We get married..say that we won't have children for awhile.
Februrary 2007-Stop taking birth control pills, start trying to have a baby...thought it would be EASY!!
August 2007-buy a house and start remodeling it...take a break from TTC while doing the remodel.
November 2007-start ttc again
June 2008-start worrying that something may be wrong.
July 2008-went to RE for consultation..find good sperm count but a few problems with motility. Puts me on clomid 50 mg.
Aug 2008-2 follicles IUI #1=bfn
September 2008-Clomid 50 mg, 2 follicles, IUI #2=BFN
October 2008-Clomid 50 mg....Got very sick, bad virus, dyhdrated went to hospital, IUI #3 cancelled.
November 2008-Clomid 50 mg...1 follicle, IUI #3 BFN
Call dr and he says I have to take the month off and come in for a consultation on Dec 30 to discuss next path.
December 2008-consultation, discuss different options, decide on IVF as our next step. They say to call when I start my period and then do Clomid challenge test.
January 2009- pass clomid challenge test, IUI #4
IUI#4-BFN
March 2009-start birth control and baby asprin for IVF
April-birth control, baby asprin, prenantal vitamins. Stop birth control on April 19th.

Monday, May 18, 2009

Preparing for the worst...

Well I am preparing for the worst. About 4 hours ago I had a some light pink blood on my pantyliner. I called my doctor and they told me not to worry about it until it got heavy...not to worry...how do they expect me to do that??? I am going in tomorrow after school to do my beta. They won't have the results until Wednesday because they lab will be closed by the time I get there. I hoping that it's no big deal....praying that it doesn't mean anything. If it does mean that it is a BFN I have already talked to God and asked him to make me strong. Please pray for me girls. Pray that if it can't be a BFP that I am strong and patient while I wait for God's plan.

16 comments:

Stacey said...: Of course I'm still thinking of you!!!! I hope, HOPE, HOPE that things go as hoped!!!; May 18, 2009 at 5:25 PM
Carrie said...: I know how hard it is to keep hoping when it seems like it didn't work, but I am HOPING for you, and know that spotting can be so common. I know, you already know, I just wanted to throw it out there. Thinking only the most POSITIVE BETA thoughts for you... and sending love.

Hugs,
Carrie; May 18, 2009 at 6:10 PM
beth ewing said...: oh girl. i still have hope it is a positive but if it is, God and i are going to have a talk about why He couldn't just make it easy on you. hang in there.; May 18, 2009 at 6:46 PM
Melody said...: I spotted after I had already found out I was pg and BOY was I scared... have you seen my darling daughter? All was well :) LOTS of women spot when they are pg. Also, if your cervix is irritated in ANY way including sex it can cause spotting b/c your cervix has to prepare for baby!; May 18, 2009 at 6:50 PM
Amber said...: I will be saying a prayer for you Im right there with you; May 18, 2009 at 6:58 PM
ashley said...: Thinking of you and praying for you. Hang in there!; May 18, 2009 at 7:38 PM
twondra said...: Oh sweetie, I will definitely be thinking of you. I hope with all my heart that it's a BFP. (((HUGS))); May 18, 2009 at 8:19 PM
Mary said...: sending good thoughts your way!; May 18, 2009 at 9:11 PM
Kristy said...: I hope that you are finding strength and peace. I could always be implantation bleeding, which is good. I'm praying for you!; May 19, 2009 at 7:38 AM
Cady said...: I had pink spotting during my 2ww, and I really felt like AF was about to come, if that makes you feel better. I'll be thinking about and praying for you!; May 19, 2009 at 8:34 AM
Kerri said...: I just came across your blog through another blog. I know this is a very stressful time for you, but I did want to let you know that I had 3 days of spotting AND bleeding before I got my BFP a few months ago. So, don't lose all hope. I hope your beta goes well. I'll be thinking of you.; May 19, 2009 at 9:53 AM
Dianne said...: Thinking of you!!!!!; May 19, 2009 at 12:42 PM
Becca said...: Thinking of you as you get your beta done today. I know the wait is so stressful!; May 19, 2009 at 2:39 PM
Melody said...: Hey Ash, how are you today?; May 19, 2009 at 7:03 PM
beth ewing said...: girl i'm dying here! what did you find out?; May 20, 2009 at 1:36 PM
Melody said...: No update yet? I forget people don't get off work at 2:30 like I do, lol; May 20, 2009 at 3:50 PM