Worry Wart

It was a normal day except I'm starting to be a worrier.
These are my worries for the day:
1. That I will catch swine flu and not be able to finish this IVF cycle....I know it's crazy!
2. That I will get some kind of other sickness and not be able to finish...I work around 4 year olds so it could happen...
3. I have had a small amount of brown spotting the last two days...is that okay??? If anyone knows please let me know!!
4. That when I go for retrieval there won't be any mature eggs.
5. That none of the eggs will fertilize.
6. That none of the eggs will make it to blastocyst.
7. That I won't finish everything at work before the end of the school year.

It feels a lot better to let it out!! Please say some prayers for us that this works out. I hope everyone had a wonderful Thursday.

Dr's Appointment

I had a doctor's appointment at 7:45 this morning. Everything went well. I had 4 follicles on the right and 5 on the left. All measured between 10-13. He wanted between 8-10 follicles so it was perfect. My doctor doesn't like to have you produce more than 10 because he doesn't want to risk OHSS. Also there wasn't really a "lead" follicle so that is GREAT!! My estrogen level was 249. I have to add Ganirelix to my injection tonight to keep my body from ovulating to early. I will go back Friday to see how it looks and schedule my retrieval!! It's getting close. I'm so excited. I hope and pray that everything continues to go well!! Please say some prayers for us.
My principal wanted me to take a 1/2 day off and go in at 11 so I went and had a massage!! I didn't want it to end. I needed it SOOO bad. That hour flew too fast. I then went to the Gap and to whole foods to pick up some lunch for my aide and I. I hope everyone had a wonderful day:)

Estrogen check

I had my estrogen checked at 7:30 this morning. It came back at 65. They said that is okay but they want to bump up my menopar to 150. So now I'm mixing 2 vials of Bravelle and 2 vials of Menopar. I'm hoping that's all I have to do because I really don't want to buy to much more medicine!! Everything else about today was pretty normal...just worked and now I'm home cooking supper. I'm about to go do Pilate's to distress!! I hope everyone had a wonderful Monday!

1st shot down...

Well I had my first injection yesterday. I didn't even have time to be nervous because I had to go to a wedding and I was late getting ready. I hurried up and mixed up the 3 vials and injected the shot myself. It didn't hurt at all. Shots have never bothered me so I think this is going to be a breeze....I hope;)
We had a lot of fun at the wedding. We got to see a lot of old friends that we hadn't seen in awhile. Today has been a regular old Saturday...cleaning house, grocery shopping, washing clothes. Brandon and I did go pick blackberries..YUM!! I also made banana bread. I have a really healthy recipe and I have been eating that for breakfast on the go. I hope everyone else is having a great weekend!!

Dr's Appointment

I had a doctor's appointment this morning. My doctor wasn't there but another Dr. was. I had an ultrasound to see if my ovaries were "silent" as she put it. They were basically making sure there were no cysts before I started taking shots. Everything looked good. I then had blood taken to test my estrogen level. It was less than 20 which is where it's suppose to be. Now I have to start taking shots on Friday (2 vials of bravelle and 1 of menopar). It's only 1 shot because I get to mix all the medicine so I'm very HAPPY about that!! I take them Friday, Saturday, and Sunday and then go back Monday morning to check estrogen levels. I will then know if I need to up the dosage. I also got to pay my fees today. They breakdown was....19,000 for the refund program, 1,250 for ICSI, and 450 for anesthesia on retrieval day!! I hope the first one works because I don't want to have to buy more medicine, pay for ICSI again, and another round of anesthesia. Everything is going good so far...I hope it continues!! I hope everyone is having a wonderful week!!

Last Birth Control Pill!!!

I'm sooo excited!! I just took my LAST birth control pill;) The countdown is on! I start stims in 5 days!! I am starting off with 150 of bravelle and 75 of menopar. I go to the doctor Wednesday to check my E2 level and have an ultrasound. My doctor won't be there so I hope all goes well. I hope everything looks fine so I can get started. I'm soo excited!

Let me tell you how crazy this birth control makes me. Friday, Brandon and I were having a nice night. We had dinner and then layed on the couch together and watched a movie. All is right in the world....until we went in the bedroom. I had washed the sheets that morning. I LOVE fresh sheets. Brandon didn't know this...he got in the bed and was acting all excited and was rolling around in the covers telling me to get in the bed. If I wouldn't have been crazy at the time..that would have been cute and romantic. Well I shouted at him..."That's FRESH sheets" "I've been looking forward to that ALL week" Then I busted out crying!!! Yes that's right..the maniac was CRYING!! He asked me why in the world I was crying because he didn't do anything wrong. I started to cry more. He told me I was being stupid....wrong answer. I was hysterical crying by that point. I went in the other room and cried and cried. I then went to bed mad. He made me breakfast in the morning....after the way I had acted!! When I told my friend the story I realized how crazy I had acted and I felt so bad for my husband!! I went home and apologized to him!! He just gave me a hug and then cooked me supper! Do I have a great husband or what??? He did tell me that when I start taking shots he is going to move in his office;) I hope my emotions don't get worse!!

I hope everyone had a great week!!

Trial Transfer

Well I had my trial transfer. It went GREAT!! It didn't hurt at all!! It felt kind of like a pap smear. The only thing that bothered me was my full bladder. When he pushed on my stomach I was so worried that I was going to pee all over him!! They also did a culture to make sure that my cervix/uterus was a good place for an embryo to live:) If it doesn't look good they prescribe antibiotics or whatever other medicine is needed. Sunday is my last day to take birth control!!! Then on Tuesday I go in for blood work and an ultrasound. Then next Friday I start stims!!! I'm sooo excited! We have a wedding to go to that day also.
After the doctor we went to Home Depot to get flowers and vegetables for our garden. Then I planted the flowers. After that I rode with Brandon to drop off a Hay Baler...that took around 2 hours. When I got home I cut the grass, watered the flowers, blew off the driveway, washed clothes, and I'm in the process of straightening up the house before my parents come for supper. I also have to cook supper...so I better get off the computer!!
I almost forget to tell ya'll what happen last night. Since I teach prek we are required to have at least 2 class pets. We have a hamster and a fish. I have to bring them home whenever we have a holiday. Well Brandon took the hamster out last night. At 5:00 this morning I had a really loud sound. I thought it was the hamster playing and I got really mad!! I got up to close the door to the room he was in...when I opened the door I heard that it was coming from the living room. I got really nervous but I didn't want to wake up Brandon. I put on my glasses and walked slowly to the living room. Then I turned around to go look in the hamster's cage. The door was open to his cage!! I stopped being nervous and went back to the living room. I turned on the light and saw the hamster under the couch. He was dragging a sticky mouse trap!!! We live close to a field so we leave out a mouse trap just in case one ever gets in. I was so scared for him! I ran to the bedroom and scared Brandon to death when I called his name. I thought for sure the hamster was going to die. I went in the bed and put the covers over my head;) Brandon went to him and saved his life!! He was only stuck on his back leg and hair so he was able to free him!! Can you believe that. That's why I don't have pets inside my house....too much drama:)