Kenz had surgery

On Wednesday kenz had her adenoids removed and tubes put in her ears! She did great! She also got her ears pierced while she was under;)

God has a plan

The funny thing is, I didn't even cry yesterday. I made Brandon call because I didn't want to know at work. He told me at 4. I didn't even believe him at first. I just sat there for a little while and stared into space. Then I looked at my little girl, told myself to "put on my big girl panties" and move on. I put on my running clothes, put her in a stroller and we went running. I hadn't done that since I started this journey. I then played outside with her for an hour.
I'm not sure where God will lead me next. I know his plan his greater than mine. I also know that I have a wonderful husband and daughter and a great family and friends.
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BFN

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Praying!

We are still hear praying that we will hear good news soon;) all prayers would be appreciated!!!

6dp5dt

Not much to report. Nope, I haven't poas! I didn't for my last ivf cycle either...I waited for my beta. Why you ask...because I'm too nervous;) I would appreciate all your prayers though!! I hope everyone is having a fabulous weekend!!

2ww

Hanging out with this girl sure makes the 2 week wait more tolerable!!! I'm so blessed what ever my outcome;) praying for another blessing though!!!

What others take for granted

A few hours ago I wrote that I was sad that I had no embryos to freeze. I'm still in awe of that. I find it hard to believe that 5 embryos looked good yesterday and none looked good today. I will leave that to God though.
As I sit here by myself on the couch watching tv (something that rarely happens these days), I have lots of time to think. Isn't it amazing that so many people get pregnant every day and go about their business like it's nothing. They never have to worry about the two week wait, they never have to go through fertility treatments, they never worry about miscarriage. That's sooo foreign to me. Infertility makes pregnancy such a gift but also such a worry. It makes you constantly worry about every twitch, symptom, pain, etc. It makes you pray every minute that you get a healthy baby. When you do it's such a gift and you get so mad at those people who take it for granted. I have always said that when I get to heaven I will ask God why people who want babies have a hard time and people who don't conceive them easily.
I also know that this is my "thing" from God. I believe everyone has a "struggle" in life that brings them closer to God and this is mine. I'm praying that these two embryos are doing well inside and the thrive and grow into healthy babies.